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[Alexandr Korol]

world of creativity and magic. But at that time I did not even know what Spirit was. I just knew that there is me, and there is when you “ascend” in the sense that you are creative, sensitive, deep, and you don’t want to leave the house, but you feel the energy, and you want to watch some melancholic films. And there is another world – society – where, on the contrary, you live, you eat, you discuss with everyone like everyone else, you watch the news, you keep in touch with everyone and so on. This world is not bad either, but there is this world.
Then I began to realise that the Spirit was in me only when I turned off my head and turned on my heart. Then I began to realise that in principle it only came into me when I switched off my head and switched on my heart, and then the Spirit came into me. But if you turn on your heart and turn off your head, He does not appear immediately. You’re just a creative guy. But if you have an open, pure heart, that’s when the Spirit can come. He came when I was writing my books – I was in the Spirit. Then I finished them and the spirit left. And then what? What you do, what you think about and who you communicate with, that’s where you resonate; that’s basically where you are. So I take a holiday and I go to Los Angeles. Of course I was surrounded by people. And I realise that I have voluntarily arranged myself to be in society, that I have limited myself in everything, and that I have been like that in the “cosmos”, in seclusion at home, for almost a whole year, and that in principle I deserve it. I should not be punished for it; that is, I can afford to live like people and go to cafes and restaurants. So I took a holiday. I was on holiday from December to January. And every week or so I called Big Alexander and said: “Alexander, can I go back to “cosmos”? I don’t want to be in a social environment with people”. And he’d say, “Alex, why not? You’ve done everything. You’re good! You’re resting now and you need to rest. If you’re like this and that, it’s normal. You’re digesting everything. You look at what awaits you in society, what people you will meet, what signs there will be”. I think to myself that makes sense. And I remember that it’s happened before. Every time I went into society after that, I had it... Well, when I’m in society – I’m in society, and then when I’m not, my heart goes on. When my heart turned on, as usual, some miracles started: voice, places of power and all that. And then I go back to the society. And it repeats itself so many times. I thought then that it was not about me, but that it was necessary. That there are cycles of nature and that everything is for the good. After all, every time I was in society and im-