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[Alexandr Korol]

other than the task I was working on. I was so immersed in this that everything else faded into the background. For example, if I had gone outside to the store and back, I wouldn’t have even remembered walking down the street because I was too focused on solving the matrix in my intellect and consciousness. As a result, everything else became secondary. I can’t even recall if I went to the bathroom yesterday, metaphorically speaking, because the only thing I know is that I was constantly working on solving the matrix. And naturally, time is perceived completely differently when you’re doing all of this. You don’t understand whether an hour, five hours, or ten hours have passed. You don’t feel your body, you don’t feel tiredness. There are no thoughts, no memory of what you did yesterday. No memory of what you plan to do tomorrow. All those human elements are completely absent. You are just consciousness, intellect, working on the given task. As I worked, I would occasionally grab a piece of bread or pizza, just to eat something, but there was no real thought of food, no thoughts of tea – none of that. It was as if nothing mattered, as if nothing else existed. Honestly, I just realized now that I haven’t taken a shower in three days. I didn’t even notice until now. Can you imagine? I’m only now becoming aware of it. As I begin to come back, I’ve also noticed that whenever this Spirit takes over and I start reading sacred texts, drawing diagrams, or building the matrix out of sticks, the intensity of this “charged” state increases. It’s this heightened state of being in the Spirit. And when you switch... Not exactly switch, but when someone brings up another subject, asking you about ordinary human work or tasks, and you respond, it feels as though you deflate a little. It’s as if this Spirit subsides when it’s not needed and intensifies when it is. That’s what I’ve noticed recently. Now I’ll share something else that grabbed my attention during this time. I always like to observe and note what catches my attention when I’m in the Spirit since it’s such a significant moment. One of the things I noted was that these regular polyhedra are seen in esoteric circles as elements representing fire, water, earth, air, and ether. I realized I need to decipher this further. Then, of course, I observed the signs of the zodiac. I don’t know how people typically group them, but I started grouping them this way. And you know what’s most interesting? Libra, which is the fourth group. Here’s how I grouped them: Aries, Taurus, Leo, and Capricorn – one group, which I associate with earth. Virgo, Sagittarius, Aquarius, and Gemini – this must be people, and likely connected to the heavens. Then Cancer, Scorpio, Pisces, and Ophiuchus – these are the underworld, and they relate to water, specifically the subterranean