chest, happiness, and everything is very clear, and usually nothing can throw me off. That is, my internal condition is very strong. But the only thing that can unhinge me from this state is something “cosmic,” such as meeting a messenger or when “They” contact me or when I visit places of power. I mean it in a good sense. It is just very strange. Imagine, I went to bed at 9pm this evening, woke up at 1:30am, and it seems like I woke up in a different reality. I perceive myself and my apartment in a totally different way. There’s a very strange feeling that there is no one I can talk to because I am on a totally different rhythm, and the people that I work with (who are the only people I communicate with) are sleeping. And I’m used to being busy when I wake up; there are a lot of questions, tasks, work affairs. Everyone is connected to me, and I am connected to them, but now everyone seems to disappear, and I am by myself. Also, the way I perceive St. Petersburg is different and very strange. But it is a temporary effect. I don’t even know how to explain it. It feels like a condition when a person is sick. But illnesses can be different, and the way each person goes through them psychologically is different. And if he was very sick and then got well and came out from the haze. As if he was so sick that he got disconnected from the normal rhythm of life. It happens when a person goes outside after staying at the hospital for two weeks. He feels like he sees everything for the first time; everything around him is different. As if he was in a daze all this time. Something similar happens after places of power. You are just in a daze, and it will pass. After that, everything goes back to normal, and you are stabilized, but there are some new qualities in you, such as faith, strength, and knowledge. But you don’t even realize it. The process of mutation is not very pleasant, you know. And when it is over, and you go back to your usual daily routine, you are feeling normal and functional again, all good.
When you tap into information like this, and if your mind is messy, then even bigger turmoil happens, like turbulence. This turbulence in a person’s mind happens when he taps into a truth. Your perception might change or become completely new. The person might feel sad or crazy confident. He is so confident that he feels like he is on top of the world. That is, he might feel all kinds of extreme impulses and feelings. It often happens with my employees. Like everything is good, and we are on the same page, but he feels weak and vulnerable because he