Chapter 31. Died and Became Kinder
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So, what interesting thing shall I tell? Oh, adventures. Sunday. Today is Sunday, a sunny day. Today is November 3. The day before yesterday, I went to bed, and there are moments when I deliberately push myself to the limit, when I am really exhausted, completely worn out, about to pass out, and up until that moment, I watch a series or a movie, or I work a lot – most often, I work because of the time difference. And so I’m dozing off, dozing off, but this time, I went to bed early and heard someone come in. I just heard someone come in. Someone was walking through the kitchen, came into my bedroom, and stood next to me. I didn’t open my eyes, I wasn’t afraid, which was the most interesting part, though, of course, I still felt different emotions inside than I would have if I hadn’t heard anyone. And I just don’t know how this happens. It’s probably like how it used to happen with the messengers, that when messengers came, it was as if my human thoughts shut off, as if I didn’t even think to ask, “Who are you? Where are you from? How did you find me?” – as if all thoughts disappeared from my head, and I just communicated with this person as if under hypnosis. And only when they leave, about half an hour later, do you come to your senses and realize what just happened. But in the moment, it’s as if you can’t control anything, as if everything happens on its own, like a dream. And so I’m lying there, meaning I wasn’t asleep at all, it’s not like I woke up and in a half-dream imagined something. No, believe me, I don’t really like all this “seemed or didn’t seem.” Someone specifically approached me. I didn’t open my eyes, I just asked, “Why have you come?” They answered me – not with a voice, but like a voice I heard in my head – they said, “We came to heal you.” I said, “But why are you scaring me? Don’t scare me. Why have you come? So that I would know and hear you?” And they responded, “Well, that’s just how it turned out today.” I answered, “Well, that’s bad. Heal me. Of course, thank you, heal me,” – I was speaking just like that. I said, “But why scare me? I’m not ready right now to experience some kind of stress from someone standing over me. Next time, don’t let me hear or feel that you’re here.” And they specifically said, “It just happened this way today, sorry.”
