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[Alexandr Korol]

I still didn’t understand him. Why? Why does he say that? Why does everyone talk as if this is truly how the system works from all sides? As if I need to understand the underworld and that the underworld is God, greater than the God of the sky and greater than the God of the earth. That this is the main God here. I clearly remember also telling Big Alexander:

– Wait, the God of the underworld cannot be the main one. Because He is one of the three visible to people, but the main one is the one who is above these three, meaning the fourth.

And then Big Alexander said that out of these three visible ones, He is the main one. Not the God of the world of the sky, not the God of the world of the earth, but specifically the God of the underworld is the most important. And I thought, “Well, this is news, what kind of new revelation is opening up for me?” Naturally, against my will — I’ll honestly admit it — against my will, I start reading and studying everything about the underworld and all the gods of the underworld to figure out what His name is, who He is, and why He is the main one. And why He is even one of the three — how is that even possible? Because, as a person of the 21st century, how am I used to thinking? That there is Christianity, there are other religions that are also serious and respected, deserving of honor. But according to my Orthodox Christian faith, I understand only one thing: that there is the Mother of God — that is good. There are different saints — that is good. My patron saint is Alexander Nevsky — that is good. There is God, an old man with a beard, the main one — well, not bad, He exists. There is the Son of God, Jesus, and even that is confusing, and so I never really could understand from anyone whether Jesus later became this “old man” or if He has His own “old man” and is separate. And which one of them is actually God? No one has been able to explain that to me to this day. I have already come up with an explanation for myself. But that’s another matter.
I understand that, after all, you have one God, and among all these bad characters, I have always heard that there is some Judas. But this Judas is present in all of our lives. Seriously, think about it — each of you has this Judas in your surroundings right now. That’s how the system is structured. He is there. Each of you has him now. So, there is this Judas — fine. I think, “Okay, noted, there is Judas.”