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[Alexandr Korol]

They showed me how the entire world really works, what’s real and what’s fake. And then they just dropped me back into the world of people. And now I can’t live among you because when you go to the movies and get excited, trying to guess what it’s all about — you have no idea who really made it or why, and what the real meaning is.” And I do know, so I don’t even know what to talk about with people anymore. That’s the kind of example I’d use to try and describe how I felt. Why it seemed like all things human felt cheapened after those places of power. And then, year after year, I kept sinking deeper and deeper, as if the system deliberately made me go as far into the world of people as possible. Like they had initiated me, shown me everything, given me everything — and then threw me into the world of people and forgot about me for ten years. That was cruel. At times, I would completely forget the whole story about the places of power and start to feel like maybe it had all just been a dream.

And going back to the question about places of power — how they work and what they are — at that time, that’s how I perceived it. I also had that earlier experience when I was a child, listening to Yoav’s song “Beautiful Lie,” and I went into such a state that I stopped feeling my body and began to hear a voice. And the voice told me that I wasn’t human, that I didn’t come here to live, but to work. Later, people who read my books told me, “That’s meditation.” But I didn’t know what meditation was. I never followed any external meditations — except the one that happened to me by accident, which I consider to be from God. I call it “channel opening.” It worked like this: I’d sit down, close my eyes, and listen to every sound in the music, which was playing on repeat — “Beautiful Lie.” It has these rising, high-pitched tones. And when I listen to that music, I imagine how the top of my head — or more accurately, my entire soul — wants to leave the body through the top of my head. And when I imagine that, energy actually starts to flow into me. First into my head — it gets heavy — then into my shoulders, then into my torso, and everything starts to feel lighter. Eventually, I become completely wrapped in this, and then I see white light and dissolve somewhere. That’s what happened to me back then, a long time ago. And later, when these places of power opened up to me, I felt they were the same thing — only I didn’t need to use any techniques. You just step into a point — these exist all over the world, as I came to understand — and it’s like standing on a kind of intersection,