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[Alexandr Korol]

easily change jobs, easily change relationships, easily change friends. But that’s only with people who have no heart, you understand? But for people with a heart, it’s a bit different. And you know, this exists. And then, after all that, it’s like the higher power, like God, the system, messengers came straight to me, and said: “Hey, don’t you dare deal with this flea.” But I still didn’t cancel anything. Because, imagine, I would have to tell all her relatives, all my relatives. And I imagined how everyone would gasp, sigh, worry, be scared, all that stuff, trying to explain to them, and no one understands who I am. And I was just scared of how everything could boil over. I’ll say this: even if... well, I broke up with that girl, again, by the higher powers, and she knows it, the higher powers did it. I would never have broken up with her myself because I was just scared. Scared of conflicts, persuading, arguments, manipulations from her side, a lot of things could have happened. And then there’s this moment. Well, it’s like I didn’t want to upset her relatives and mine, because all people are good, and many are already older, elderly, I just didn’t want all of that. And you’re already involved in all this. And on one hand, they told you that there would never be any relationships, no family, because you came here not to live, but to work. That’s what they told me, and I didn’t listen. Foolish, right? So I’m already to blame for getting involved. On the other hand, if God didn’t want it, He wouldn’t have allowed it. He still allowed it. He knew it would be temporary, for a certain period, until I was needed by the higher powers and should be stewing and adapting in the social-material world, so that’s where I was. So while I was in society and in a relationship, it was like a social-material school for me, and I’m thankful for it, but I wouldn’t have left on my own. And the girl herself said, when I asked her, “What do you want?” she said: “That’s it, we’re breaking up.” I thought: “Oh, good, at least I didn’t have to say it.” I replied: “Alright.” Of course, she later wanted to change everything again, but I said: “No, that’s it, since you said it – everything’s fine, my conscience is clear. I didn’t do anything bad, you suggested it – fine.” Well, I’ll say this – in a sign of protection for this girl, I’ll say – she’s not guilty at all. Not in the sense that the higher powers specifically set her up, deliberately misled her, and did everything so that she herself would do foolish things, I know what kinds, and nasty things, and feel guilty for it, and so she would make up something in her head and break up with me according to her conscience. So the higher powers did all this to free me from her.