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[Alexandr Korol]

Yann Tiersen — Summer 78
Explosions in the sky — Six days at the Bottom of the Ocean Antonio Pinto — Warlord
Yann Tiersen — Farther is Late
Dom Mino’ — Time Lapse
Clint Mansell — Together We Will Live Forever (The Fountain OST)

Above, I shared my old notes, my drafts, my jottings. These are excerpts from my diaries that later became part of the book “Paradox”. And what common thread can we notice, what conclusion can we draw? It turns out that something was happening with a certain periodicity, something occurred in my life whenever I entered another world. I didn’t know what to call it — I simply said it was my world, that it was another world, some kind of otherworld, that it felt like something out of a fairy tale, like in the film “Interstate 60” or like in the film “Big Fish”. Just recently, a few days ago, I watched the film “Hook” with Robin Williams and cried several times, remembering everything. And how unusual it is that — just imagine — the System had already... That is, the Spirit, the System had already for more than a month, even back when I was finishing the eighth volume of “Alternative History”, the Spirit was highlighting this phrase and these words everywhere, reminding me that I needed to remember everything. I didn’t understand what it meant. And it turns out, can you imagine, here it is — the time that Big Alexander spoke about long ago, when back then he, together with Valentina, advised me to keep a diary. But first it was Valentina who advised me to become a writer, that everything I was writing down, later I could make a book out of it. That “everything that happens to you — why try to tell it to someone from your circle who doesn’t understand you? You just write it down for yourself.” So I began to write a book, but originally I kept a diary. And later, when meeting Big Alexander in the winter of 2009, he then told me:

— Write everything down, without fail.
— Why?