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[Alexandr Korol]

to be occupied, and it feels great. But when it happened that I finished all my matters, then my attention became completely free — or so I think, not completely, but free from all everyday affairs. Yet at the same time it remained captive to this earthly world, that is, not in the world of heaven. And it turns out that I try to sit as in the world of heaven, “meditate,” in quotation marks, but it doesn’t work, and I want to go into the world of people. Or rather, I am already in it, but I mean I want movement, because I am in the world of people. And it feels bad, even unpleasant, as if lonely, because loneliness does not exist in the world of heaven. When you are in the world of heaven, that is, in the world of happiness, even if you are alone, you are not lonely. But when you sit even a couple of hours without business in the world of people, and you are connected to the world of earth and people, you begin to feel melancholy. And such people always feel lonely, and therefore they always want to join in somewhere, to join in some affairs. I begin to experience this, to feel it myself. And I think: “What should I do? How can I return to the world of heaven?” I begin to take action. I start first by recording: it seems I am dressed the same. Then I look — no, it is different, because substitution happens immediately. That is, when you enter the world of earth, you still choose everything according to your heart, but everything is different. And when you enter the world of heaven, you again choose everything according to your heart, on autopilot, but it is all different, the opposite. I see that my cap is not red but black, my T-shirt not white but black. Then I notice, in the world of heaven, what did I see? I was without rings, without a watch, without rings. At times I might put something on, but you could say without. As if I would forget to wear them, and it wasn’t needed. But in the world of people I am completely covered with all this. On the other hand, perhaps it should be so, because in the world of heaven everything is already fine with you, while in the world of people you need to be, to feel protected, as they say. I realize that I am covered with all these attributes. I think, “Okay, fine, I’ll take them off.” Next. I turn on music — I don’t hear it; I turn on kind travel movies — I can’t focus on a single one. Not on a single one. And it is just as if there is a pile of thoughts in my head about nothing. You don’t even understand what is wrong. And such an unpleasant feeling, as if something happened, but nothing happened. Do you know how I solved this?