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[Alexandr Korol]

you did not want to, but then you say: “yes, fine, I’ll go,” and that’s it, you went, and it will not hurt you so strongly that you would recognize the signal. No, you will only feel slightly, on a subtle level, that you really did not want to, but your friend told you: “come on, come on,” and after the third time that he told you “come on, come on,” you already stopped listening to your heart and went, and after that you return empty. And that is still fortunate if you return after that, but it may happen that you do not return. That’s it.

And so I noticed that it does not matter whether I am alone when I go somewhere for a walk, or with someone, if I have organized and planned everything, and the person has trusted me and simply follows me, then everything is magical. And I do not close myself off from the person, and I do not get lost, nothing at all. But it is enough for me to yield to a person in something — the person, kindly, of course, without evil intent, says to me: “Alex, let’s not go to this café, let’s go to that one instead. It’s very good there,” for example, a friend tells me: “It’s very good there, I always go there.” And if I refuse the café I chose, the one that was highlighted to me, and go to the one the friend suggested, then that’s it, I have immediately stepped off my path — that is how fragile it is all arranged. But again, I do not control it with my mind. It is useless for any reader on the other side of this book to memorize all this now. It is useless to memorize it and to try like a robot to control it, it does not work that way, you will only create some kind of tension for yourself. I am telling how it happens by itself, if a person is in the world of heaven, how it will be noticed and manifested in him, but it all happens by itself. That is, I do nothing, I simply noticed that suddenly my desire to agree to something, to which I would have agreed before, has fallen away. The desire to yield in something has fallen away, so as not to sink down again. Likewise with conversations — I feel directly that someone wants to show me or tell me something, and I know immediately that if I delve into it now, then that’s it, I will sink down there. I say:

— Listen, do as you like, I don’t want to get into it, — I say this honestly to the person.
— Really?