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[Alexandr Korol]

Seriously, since childhood, I’ve always avoided and felt uncomfortable
around those “sophisticated” social people who judge you by your cover,
who are envious, who lie and suck up. It felt as if I were talking to a person
like that. Like some sketchy, informal DJ in a nightclub who is talking my
ear off while looking at me and calculating what to say and what not to say,
how to belittle me while remaining a “friend” just to get something out of me.
That’s how it looked. As if he felt some kind of envy.

To you, the readers: when you read this book again and come across this
dialogue, pay attention — it looks as if I were talking to an envious person
who simply envies me and doesn’t want to confirm anything, as if he is
competing with me to my detriment. Big Alexander noticed this too and was
in shock. And I was in shock. Of course, one could put forward many different
versions of why this happened. I have one version, for instance: right now I am
in society, not in the mountains. And because I am in society, perhaps I am
in a different multiverse where Mystic-Old-Man is also different. Perhaps
if I were currently in a “Super Spirit” state, hearing the internal voice of
the aliens and sitting in the mountains, and then called him, the dialogue
might have been different. As you remember, I shared a dialogue before
where Mystic-Old-Man and I communicated very, very openly. But here,
everything is closed off. As if in this reality where I am now, Mystic-Old-Man
is super-closed, material, a lost person with bad internal qualities. Maybe
that’s the reason. Maybe the System triggered some protection because of
how I touched upon things, opened up, and got inspired — and it all had
to be grounded somehow. There are many versions, but Big Alexander said
that none of that matters. When I listed all these options to him to somehow
justify Mystic-Old-Man — because he is Mystic-Old-Man, after all, and I
have respect for him — Big Alexander said: “No, here he specifically buried
you and drowned you. He buried you, and it’s like he envies you, making
things up and dodging.” I won’t argue with Big Alexander; it’s true, I see it.
The reason remains unclear. It’s as if he triggered a defensive reaction or a
program... Though it’s also a question of who is on whose side and where one
is plugged in. But it feels as if for anyone who turns to him with a question
of faith, he will offer a false path, an untrue one. That is what I see now.