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[Alexandr Korol]

What I am pondering, realizing, working on the books — this is already insane labour and already an insane work. And who could have thought that, as it turns out… And on the one hand, it is logical: given how many multiverses and worlds and spirits and gods we see, then, after all, it makes sense. It turns out there is the whole world of the sun — there is the world of family. None of that has gone anywhere — one can enter this world. And one can drown in this dream — really, it is paradise. And everything is included there, and everything is wonderful. I simply have to say right now: “Okay, yes” — just in my head — and that’s it, I will depart into it for good. And I am not saying “yes.” I am not yet ready to make such a serious decision. I am not ready. But yes — this world, it is just happiness, it exists.

And what is most curious is that, as it were, time right now is going in the opposite direction. After all, when I appeared as Alexandr Korol originally, with my first books, what was I like back then? I had neither thoughts, nor feelings, nor emotions — I was some kind of higher consciousness, and back then I could already work wonders. I knew everything a person was thinking, I felt every person, I could pinch myself on the ear, and any person I would think about would feel this pinch at any point in the world. If I imagined that I didn’t feel my leg — the person would stop feeling their leg. That was who I was. If a person thought about me, I immediately knew who it was that had thought about me, when, and what — and I could call him at that moment and answer him. That is who I was. But then, in 2011, after the messengers, the places of power, and everything in general, all of that disappears — I end up in the world of people, and I think it’s the social mass. I have my first relationship with the girl Katya, which the messenger Lyubov had foretold — and that I would live in a house, that there would be a car. And I build a relationship with the girl Katya — and then I felt this switching over: that I had ended up in the world of people. Some thoughts, feelings, emotions appeared in me. I started watching the series “Prison Break,” started playing the PlayStation game “Uncharted 3,” started going to the store for groceries, and I developed an interest in food. Before, I didn’t eat food — I didn’t care — and here I started eating food, started sleeping, started distinguishing all of this. That kind of world of people. And I thought that was the material world. But I called it the social mass back then, and it turns out I was