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[Alexandr Korol]

What else can I remember right now, while I haven’t yet flown off into “without the mind”? What else was I remembering — what else were the kinds of strangenesses I had back in my childhood? Ah — well, the fact that I couldn’t think. And it turns out — even in 2011, after the places of power, after Big Alexander, after the messengers, that’s when I had already felt it… But still — you see — it’s smeared out, stretched over some months — that is, it doesn’t happen sharply in one day. There is still some kind of process of transition. And back then I started feeling that, as it were, all the wonders had ended. It was as if I had become material, had started thinking, had started evaluating everything, and all of this more and more. But at the same time, I still remained, all the same, in some kind of state “without the mind.” Sort of with the mind, and sort of “without the mind” — that is, both this and that — it would still skip back and forth like this.

And back then it was such that at certain moments my mind could switch on for a certain period, but then it would disappear, then switch on again, then disappear. And back then I started alternating in this way — that I could, as it were, go off into “without the mind,” and could also switch on the mind. And that’s why I could, sort of, be in “without the mind” as well, but no longer as strongly, of course, as I was describing it just now, the way it had been earlier. But it was as if I was both touching that world and the world of the mind. And that’s why I could already describe this — and the books were easier for me to write back then, all of this.

And back then it was such that I would ask my friends to ask me questions when I wanted to record videos. When readers had already appeared, they would write me questions on the social network. The questions were very interesting, but I couldn’t think, and I couldn’t come up with these questions. How do I explain it to you? I’ll try now. If I had switched on the camera right now — but only at that age, when I was 20 — if I had switched on the iPhone, the camera, in front of me to start speaking about something, then that’s it — I would immediately forget what I was supposed to say, just like that. And the state was crazy like this, a crazy “without the mind,” just the most ferocious — everything: time, space — everything was lost. And if a friend would come to me, I would tell him: “Could you please — over here on the social networks, that’s where people write questions — write down on a little piece of paper the first five that come up.