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[Alexandr Korol]

And that I would even forget about the books, about people, about everything in general — that nothing more would exist, except for the place I had ended up in. And right now the same thing could happen. And if I go off into this state right now, I might go off into it so far that I will no longer be able to compare. That is — one can reach such an immersion that I won’t remember having planned to go off into this state, won’t be able to give an account of myself — that I had been someone else, that there is the world of the mind — I might even forget this. And then I’ll start to feel myself only as the place I have ended up in — that there is only this and nothing more, you understand?

And it is precisely this that Big Alexander was afraid of — that I would drown in this, that I wouldn’t be able to return. And right now I will be thinking through the plan — dictating voice messages on the messengers to my employees, with instructions on how to bring me back. When I have fully gone off there, into this world “without the mind,” where I am the Spirit, then everything is different there. And whatever my employees will be offering me in a week’s time, to make me return, I might say “no” to all of it, you understand? And only if I prepare for myself little keys right now, on how to return back, only through these little keys and tools will I be able to bring myself back into the world of the mind, the world of people — where I think, and give an account of myself, and feel this linear time, and understand everything. And there, this time isn’t there — there everything is already all at once. Everything is one day. Right now, we’ll see how this happens. Maybe I will go off there for good and won’t even understand it. Maybe I will return from there. And maybe I won’t manage to go off there at all — and this was just some kind of test, a psychological, temporary preparation.