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[Alexandr Korol]

born like this. There is a certain rule: when you are already born like this… that is, people only walk towards this, while you don’t need to walk towards this — you were already born this way. But when you are born like this, you must descend down to the very bottom, must plunge straight into the very darkness, in order to extract some kind of lesson from it. In order to free yourself from this — so as not to fall under the influence of people, and that burden of theirs they bear — in order to be above this, because everyone gets a hold of you, wants to lower you, because they are going through these problems, and you are no longer like this, but free — but in order to somehow adapt here, where you have come, you must plunge into this darkness for a time, so that afterwards it can no longer affect you.” That is — I had been special and outside the system all the same. That is what he said. Also, we discussed with him that he is still insisting on my having a family — that the time has come, that the Jews didn’t allow Jesus to start a family, because that was spoiling certain plans of theirs. And that if He had started a family, everything would be different in the world right now. When he started saying this, I immediately drew the analogy that, as it were, someone is interfering in my life and correcting it — that someone else can also influence this. But if there is the main God, if there is me, if everything has already closed in and everything has already happened, why is it that someone can influence this? Purely theoretically, I supposed, since I already perceive reality slightly differently — maybe the people who live in time cannot influence me. But there are also those who have long been outside of time, which means that all of time is open to them, they are outside of the system, and can somehow influence things — especially if the old system is still present, and the new one, the one I am supposed to launch, has not yet come about. And since they are outside of time, that means they can influence things. All the people who are only in time cannot do anything. But that’s just a theory.

And so Big Alexander is insisting on the family. And I tell him that I don’t want it. I do think about it, of course, but I don’t know… I say that maybe, in order to be in this “cosmos” and not get lost, maybe for this I need a family. So that there will be those who will look after me. That’s what I told him. And he is all: “Yes, yes, yes” — as if he is pushing me to it. “Yes, yes, yes” — like that to everything. Then I say: “But it seems to me that a family isn’t needed, because the state I was in,