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[Alexandr Korol]

of what to choose has, as it were, advanced forward by 1%. Right now the scales have tipped a little more towards the option of being no one, nothing, refusing family and everything — and so becoming nothing and no one.” But you understand — right now a day or two will pass, or maybe a couple of hours, and I will be pulled again to the other side — that, after all, a family is needed, because there… And there will be a bunch of arguments, facts, examples, and so on. And so I am, for now, in a suspended state, as if between two multiverses, parallel worlds — and so I am in this weightlessness. And what’s most interesting is — this weightlessness is now reflected onto many people as well. They don’t understand what this is, but many right now feel a suspended state — that, as it were, they don’t understand what is next, where to go next, what to do next, what to choose. And these people are now feeling this — some in their work, some in something else — they are feeling this right now.

Today is some date in the twenties of February. Right now I am still located in the material environment, in the social-material one. And I want to add some very interesting information. Specifically what is current, from the last period of time. This is all on the same theme — the theme of the Last Judgment and so on. I just had a crazy realization. When I was in the underground kingdom, I was maximally running into this dark force — the one that is precisely like an instinct, like these dark feelings, let’s call them that, dark illusions. And the people with whom I would have run-ins. The people who would get “nightmared,” in quotation marks — that is, people would go out of their minds in the sense that they would do strange things, sinful ones — that is, Mara was tempting everyone there. All of this was real. Just now I imagined this list of people — and my life is like a mini-world. These people were, in truth — they were not smart, not spiritual in heart, but precisely with instincts — the ones who live precisely by animal instincts. And it was as if only they were being highlighted to me, and they would intersect with me, and I with them. And it was as if the Last Judgment was precisely my interaction with them, their interaction with me. And right now I am simply in shock. Why? Because — here I have, let’s say, my closest friends, they have known for 10 years that I have a varied circle of acquaintances. And I have, let’s put it this way, sinful, “friends” in quotation marks, that is, more precisely — I used to have. And there are the material friends, who live only by