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[Alexandr Korol]

And each one finds his own, but everyone has some kind of, let’s say, heartache
or heaviness of their own, and on the basis of this they all find one another there
and build a couple. But I’ve got, as it were, no match. Yet when I come to the
United States yet again, I look at all the women and men, and I see that it’s as if
they’re all my kin. How can that be? Let’s put it this way: I can’t be mistaken in
my feelings; maybe I’ve chosen the words wrong just now, maybe I’ve packaged
it wrong, but I feel it, that it’s as if they’re all my kin. They’re just like me, they
relate to people and to God, and to money, with the same noble values. And I’m
downright shocked. And so I’ve got this firmware from before America after all,
from childhood, and they have it. And how did that come about? By what means
was I dropped into Petersburg, and I was born in Petersburg? I don’t understand.
How is this connected? Or is it, after all, like in the series “Game of Thrones”:
“Hodor, Hodor, Hodor. Hold, Hodor, hold, Hodor.” And maybe it’s because I was
born, but everything is already looped shut in the future, and in the future maybe
I’m in America, and because of this America is already within me, as in childhood,
as in the past, it was already manifesting that way, and that’s why from childhood
I was told that I look like an American. Maybe it’s like that? I don’t know.

It’ll be revealed soon, this year. This year a lot is due to be decided, a very
interesting year. It’s as if this year some kind of period will be put, some final
choice will already occur, and it’s this year. By the feel of it, it’s either before the
end of May, or the month of September, roughly August-September or the end
of May. There are two periods: either before summer or at the end of summer.
Either both of these periods will be significant somehow, or just one of them
after all. Well, we’ll see. That’s how I see it. That is, it’s as if, if what’s supposed
to come together for me in May comes together, then after that we wait for the
end of summer, and something’s supposed to come together there. If something
doesn’t come together in May, then there won’t be a September either, which
means everything will happen starting from May. Well, we’ll see. Curious.

If we’re to speak once more about these Americans. It’s clear that all people
are different, but the ones who are the Spirit — they’re exactly the same as
I am now. If we’re to speak about their state, this firmware of pixels, I don’t
know what to call it. That is, they have no thoughts, as if super-consciousness.