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[Alexandr Korol]

On May 9th, then, I’ll have to perform online, live, over audio, and simply tell
what my eleventh volume is about. Simply tell the story about the Spirit, so
that people would feel the Spirit. That’s it. Nothing more. A person shouldn’t
understand anything, there’s no need to understand anything with the mind. He
simply has to listen, like a musical concert, a presentation— only it’s my account
about the Spirit. And in my plans it’s like… Right now I’m going around with my
eleventh-volume book, with the 300 draft pages. That is, I’ll just read it a bit here
now, because when you’re in the Spirit, it’s very hard to recall it all, to remember
everything that was in the eleventh volume. I don’t know from what spot I’ll
begin telling the eleventh volume. Which moments I’ll decide to mention at the
presentation and which not, I don’t know. The task is simply to tell the very, very
strongest moments, the ones from which the Spirit enters into me the most. That
is, I must speak about those things because of which the Spirit switches on for me.
Possibly I’ll recall March 10th or April 10th — I already get muddled in the dates.
This is when I was at a friend’s birthday in Los Angeles, and I was already in the
Spirit then, because the concert was on March 9th. And so this is kind of what I
should write. Possibly I should write how I felt the state of the “cosmos” before
that, when I met with the girl, a girl friend, before America. Or I should write…
Well, everything connected with the Spirit, I should describe. Oh, it’s beginning
to come over me again, no sooner do I begin to recall this. I’m literally the Spirit,
such a flow onto me… And so it turns out I must recall it all this way, and in this
flow, like a waterfall, something will go out onto people too. And we’ll drop away
somewhere there. I must give light like this. What for? I don’t know, maybe so
that the light bulbs would light up in people. I don’t know what for. It’s not I who
want it, it’s the system that wants it. I get nothing from it at all, but that’s how it
needs to be, and that’s it. But maybe this is some part precisely of the eleventh
volume — that is, you see, I even… That is, I must speak in the book about — that
is, here it’s a world within a world, that I’m the hero of the book, a writer. A writer
writes a book about me, that is, I write a book about the writer, that is, about
myself. And I must come to know this Spirit like this, and must also see people or
perform online, so that I’d give light with the Spirit. What’s this for? I don’t know,
it’s simply the eleventh volume, it’s like that. When this presentation happens
on May 9th, then it’s as if something will happen… Something will occur, some
new stage will begin, something will happen.