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[Alexandr Korol]

That is, she couldn’t communicate with me in my world. I had to descend into
this — excuse me — stinking world of people and of who-knows-what, and be
this earthly one all these days. And yes, she, like me, truly has had messengers
in her life, and at certain moments she herself becomes “cosmic.” But for her
it’s so rare that in most cases she’s closed, material, sinful. And she’s all in there.
And she can’t crawl out of it, doesn’t want to and can’t.

In the end, the girl Serafima is good. She has those qualities I’ve never
encountered in any people — those noble ones. I even gave her an example. I say:

— Have you seen Guy Ritchie’s film “King Arthur: Legend of the Sword”?
— Well, yes.
— Do you remember that chosen king, that young actor, he lived in a brothel?
— I remember.
— So imagine, that’s you. And we, the magician, keep coming for you, and you
send us all packing. And here we’re telling you that that’s it, this is the edge, the
time is approaching something, some finale. We need you. And you say: “Oh,
wait, I still need to work in the brothel a couple more days, wait a week.” That is,
you’re saying this to God and to us, the magician. Do you understand that at all?

She truly is in such a position. She’s as if King Arthur, who lives in a brothel and
doesn’t understand what blood flows in him and that he alone can defeat the
dark beast, the dark forces. And she doesn’t understand it. Astonishing. Well,
and of course there’s a lot of bad, human stuff in her that she doesn’t work on,
doesn’t deal with. And since she’s very strong precisely psychologically, no one
can handle her, and that’s why no one has been able to tame her: not her parents,
not her friends, not her acquaintances. And the only person she’s afraid of and
whom she can at least somehow listen to is me. That’s the biggest joke of it, which
is why she’s in shock: who am I? Because for her, people aren’t… Why isn’t she
with men all this time? Because for her they’re not equals, she sees right through
all of them: clear, boring, defined. Whereas here I am, unclear who, and you can’t
argue with me. She even said that when something similar happens, when they
put pressure on her personality — I clarify: