Alexandr Korol

experienced it to some extent. But the point is that in the last ten years there has been such a temptation when we see how people behave. Girls post half-naked pictures of themselves. Guys are cocky and ostentatious. People have started to present themselves as gurus and top specialists. We look at all this and we can’t help but think that if we had no shame, if we were careless and rude, we would have much more fame, money and popularity. But something inside us doesn’t let us lose our good sense, as if we feel that we can’t go against ourselves. You feel that if you let yourself go, it would be like drowning in darkness. You would lose your nobility and feel dirty. I have felt this way since I was very young. I had many chances to cross that line and go to the other side, but something always stopped me. People would tell me: “Hey Alex, so many coaches and companies organise training seminars. Why don’t you work with them?” I always said: “None of this is right. There is something wrong with it.” They said to me: “What do you mean, not right? Everybody loves them, they make so much money. You can work with them, and they are so epically clever”. I said, “If I came from nowhere like that guy, I would be taking pictures with models and fancy cars. I would be bragging all over the place that I was the best coach ever. But I can’t. Better kill me before I go that low. I would feel the same way when I bump into an old lady in the street and steal her handbag. It feels like a crime to me. Same with the TV shows. They called me from the studios so many times in 2010. Even then I was prejudiced against them. Well, I’m not prejudiced, but I don’t know how to explain it. I had an opinion about it even when I was 20 years old. They called me from this popular TV talk show and I asked them: “What would be my role in your programme? Are you going to present me as a clown and make fun of me? Will you position me as an indigo child and laugh at me? Will we discuss the content and have a contract so that our conversation is positive and realistic? What is the agenda of your talk show?” They told me: “Our agenda is to show strange people and make fun of them.” I told them: “No, thank you, I am on a slightly different level. Bye.” Seriously, we had that conversation. You see, a stupid, eager, low-frequency, uncultured person would get excited and run if they had the opportunity to be on any show as long as it was on TV. As for me, I watch it because I have a kind of attitude inside and I am always looking for reassurance that I am doing the right thing. Sometimes I look for something that can change the way I feel and I let myself go because it is hard work.