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to talk less about miracles, and consequently, my connection with them began to fade. I was on the verge of completely immersing myself into society, forgetting about myself, when God stepped in, as they always do, through circumstances and hit me over the head. From then on, once a week, I made a conscious effort to re-enter ‘space,’ to pay attention to my soul, to nurture my inner self, to ensure that I wouldn’t lose my spark.
When I was younger and didn’t know how to be in balance, I went to the materialistic extreme, and then I quickly learned techniques to turn off my mind and return my soul. But it wasn’t long before the pendulum had swung too far the other way, and I’d left the material world behind completely and needed to return to it. For a while, I was rocking back and forth and relied on the different techniques as counterbalances. And you had to be really careful because if you go too far into “space,” you don’t give a damn about anything material, and then the material would begin to crumble, and I could end up homeless with nothing to eat. And so, to prevent this from happening, I made a list of essentials of the material frequency to be included in the material rhythm. I have a book about this called “Frequency of the Mind.” There is a rough draft on my site. But essentially, my idea of who I am hasn’t ever changed. I mean, I know I’m weird. I know that some kind of alien or someone is aware of me, and I listen to them, and they help me. Yes, I know it.
This is some kind of illusion. I am in an illusion. But you see, it’s not bad that I believe in this illusion. Look how this illusion charges me up, inspires me, gives me faith, and strengthens my mind. So I don’t care if it’s an illusion. And if it turns out that this is not an illusion, well, even better. But I believe in this illusion, in my life story. And it kept me from getting lost, broken, and giving up.
I’m at the “diamond” stage now. I got here a year and a half ago when Big Alexander said that I’d defeated the snake. That I conquered this material world. I am free, and I can live with my heart. When he said that “the stone should become a diamond,” he spoke about the “red dragon.” He meant that a person has a human mind. It is there, and you can turn it off and be crazy. But the mind
When I was younger and didn’t know how to be in balance, I went to the materialistic extreme, and then I quickly learned techniques to turn off my mind and return my soul. But it wasn’t long before the pendulum had swung too far the other way, and I’d left the material world behind completely and needed to return to it. For a while, I was rocking back and forth and relied on the different techniques as counterbalances. And you had to be really careful because if you go too far into “space,” you don’t give a damn about anything material, and then the material would begin to crumble, and I could end up homeless with nothing to eat. And so, to prevent this from happening, I made a list of essentials of the material frequency to be included in the material rhythm. I have a book about this called “Frequency of the Mind.” There is a rough draft on my site. But essentially, my idea of who I am hasn’t ever changed. I mean, I know I’m weird. I know that some kind of alien or someone is aware of me, and I listen to them, and they help me. Yes, I know it.
This is some kind of illusion. I am in an illusion. But you see, it’s not bad that I believe in this illusion. Look how this illusion charges me up, inspires me, gives me faith, and strengthens my mind. So I don’t care if it’s an illusion. And if it turns out that this is not an illusion, well, even better. But I believe in this illusion, in my life story. And it kept me from getting lost, broken, and giving up.
I’m at the “diamond” stage now. I got here a year and a half ago when Big Alexander said that I’d defeated the snake. That I conquered this material world. I am free, and I can live with my heart. When he said that “the stone should become a diamond,” he spoke about the “red dragon.” He meant that a person has a human mind. It is there, and you can turn it off and be crazy. But the mind