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Posted: Tue Sep 03, 2024 7:21 pm
The first thing that’s interesting is this transformation-mutation. It looks like this. Let’s imagine that I am used to a certain thing, like you, let’s say, are used to eating porridge every morning. Today you are different, and you want to eat this porridge in the old way, but you don’t understand why you are sick of it, and you don’t understand what is happening. And you have already become a different person spiritually, internally, but in your memory you are still dragging some things from the old version of yourself into the new you. So it turns out that yes- terday you were number five and today you are number ten. When you wake up in the morning you start to do something from the old memory of being number five in the world. But it is very bad, or it is not good, or you do not like it, but you try to do it on autopilot and you do not understand what the heck you should do. This is a phenomenon that can manifest in a person who has one personality switched on and another personality switched off. That’s one thing you might come across. The second thing, which is strange, is the complete opposite. That’s when you get, metaphorically speaking, into a new version of yourself, let’s say number 10 or number 20, and that’s already a different personality, and there are different desires, different reactions to everything. And you for- get your plans for the year, even for the next month. You start to forget them because your feelings take over. There’s a flip side to this, you see. Today you may have different feelings. Yesterday you were number five, and you’ve been number five for a year. And you have plans to get your driving licence, to learn a language, to finish the repairs on your house. And then you wake up today and today you have a spiritual, psychological level, a multiverse, an essence, number 20. And this number 20, when you are weak, these feelings overwhelm you. And if you have another personality of level 20, if you are weak spiritually and psychologically, then your feelings are boiling, which is fine. It doesn’t mean you have to throw your whole life away. Does that make sense? And it doesn’t mean you have to give up your driving school, your building site, your friends if you suddenly don’t feel like doing something today. Of course you don’t feel like it – you’ve reached level 20. But you should still have brains and logic, and you should understand that you have some set goals, that no matter how your mood changes... Let’s simplify these spirits, multiverses, and call it “mood”. No matter how your mood changes, you must not lose your mind and remain sober. And this, what I am describing to you now, these two situations, these two