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[Alexandr Korol]

to be in this old apartment because I can see what things I forgot, what I can still take with me to the new one. The new apartment is clean, like a fresh space. I only bring what’s necessary from the old world into the new. That’s why I go back and forth. Now, let me explain what this means.
Imagine that the new world, the new matrix, is like a dream. And if it is like a dream, then there you can no longer think about how you look or what you are even wearing. It’s as if, when you are thrown out of that dream back into the material world – this is how I judge it now, while reading this draft – I think, “It would be nice to...” because there are no feelings of choice in that matrix. Seriously, in that new matrix, there is no sense of “this frequency or that frequency.” None of that exists. It’s just a sweet fog, in the best sense of the word. And... if I soon leave for that sweet fog completely, and the doors close – while they’re still open now – when I return here, I can think as a person, with thoughts and mind. That’s the old matrix. And I think, “Oh, maybe it would be good to dress in something classic like Indiana Jones in that world.” Because if I prepare my image now, then when I get there, I will already be in that image. And I won’t be able to change my image there. It won’t matter there. Like if I’m in beach sandals and a dirty, stretched-out t-shirt and then go there completely, I’ll stay like that. But I won’t even be aware of it, and it won’t bother me. It’s as if that won’t matter there. But when I’ve returned to the human world now, I realize that, on one hand, it doesn’t matter, but on the other hand, I would still like to be in a certain image. It’s like I’ve come back to refine my external appearance, so that when I go there again, I’ll go with a good look. Imagine such a paradox. That’s how I see it.
And do you remember how I wrote in my books, even from childhood, that there’s some world of mine? And it’s unique. It’s the same feeling I had yesterday, on the 10th. It was the same back in 2008-2009. I wrote back then that I was in this world, but then I would lose it when I started stressing over mundane things. That’s what would close it off for me. So what do I need to do to fully immerse myself in this rhythm of happiness and make sure it never fades or gets lost? I realized that you need to be as independent as possible from everything. And now, it feels like everything is falling into place. This process won’t be complete tomorrow; it will take time. It will still be gradual, but it seems like it’s all interconnected, even with the book. I think that until the book is finished, I won’t be able to fully enter the new matrix. That’s the first thing. The second thing is, until the t-shirts start selling, I won’t be able to fully move