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Posted: Mon Sep 23, 2024 11:19 am
and I was somewhere here. It was as if I wasn’t with them, like I was entirely different. That was interesting too.
When I am at my most... It feels like my most intensely spiritual state. When I am at my most intensely spiritual – like what I entered on the 10th and what I had experienced before when I started writing my books – my character is still different from the other versions or stages of my spiritual self. It does feel different. And when I am at my most intensely spiritual, I don’t feel sympathy for people in distress. But at the same time, I don’t judge evil people. Nor do I criticize sinful or greedy people. It’s as if I have no claims against anyone from any angle. I don’t feel the need to deliver justice. Nor do I feel the need to punish those who deserve it. I don’t feel the urge to intervene and save someone who’s about to be deceived. It’s as if I see that everything is as it should be. It’s a beautiful world, perfectly organized, and everything has its time and place. And I’m just in the position of an observer. An observer who sees that everything is as it should be.
If someone falls and scrapes their knee, I see it in the same way as if someone picked a flower. Just like someone making a proposal today, or someone else having a baby, and a family is filled with happiness. Meanwhile, someone else catches their partner cheating. It’s all the same to me when I’m in this observer position. When I’m in this state of ultimate spirituality. Besides that, it feels as if I’m in a kind of cocoon or vacuum, as if I’m untouchable, completely impervious. Nothing can affect me. Nothing bothers or disturbs me. There are no tasks. I’m just a blissful observer.
Why am I describing this? Well, today, before starting to work on the third volume of “Alternative History”, I suddenly realized that those other versions of my spiritual self – are deities. But it’s like they are different deities, in a way. It’s as if I can be a different spiritual being because different spiritual beings are different Gods. And there is, indeed, a hierarchy – not just among spiritual people or angels, but also a hierarchy of Gods. And when I was spiritual before June 10th, or six months ago, or a year ago, I was embodying different versions of Gods. And I’ve noticed that there are probably two, three, or four Gods – seems like three. I can’t yet say the exact number. But I’m writing it down now because I’ll know for sure later. I also like documenting it when I’m just starting to sense something that I haven’t fully grasped yet. I like showing this journey to readers. And right now, it feels like there are, let’s say, two Gods. I used to embody one God, then another. And now, it’s as if I’m this third God.
When I am at my most... It feels like my most intensely spiritual state. When I am at my most intensely spiritual – like what I entered on the 10th and what I had experienced before when I started writing my books – my character is still different from the other versions or stages of my spiritual self. It does feel different. And when I am at my most intensely spiritual, I don’t feel sympathy for people in distress. But at the same time, I don’t judge evil people. Nor do I criticize sinful or greedy people. It’s as if I have no claims against anyone from any angle. I don’t feel the need to deliver justice. Nor do I feel the need to punish those who deserve it. I don’t feel the urge to intervene and save someone who’s about to be deceived. It’s as if I see that everything is as it should be. It’s a beautiful world, perfectly organized, and everything has its time and place. And I’m just in the position of an observer. An observer who sees that everything is as it should be.
If someone falls and scrapes their knee, I see it in the same way as if someone picked a flower. Just like someone making a proposal today, or someone else having a baby, and a family is filled with happiness. Meanwhile, someone else catches their partner cheating. It’s all the same to me when I’m in this observer position. When I’m in this state of ultimate spirituality. Besides that, it feels as if I’m in a kind of cocoon or vacuum, as if I’m untouchable, completely impervious. Nothing can affect me. Nothing bothers or disturbs me. There are no tasks. I’m just a blissful observer.
Why am I describing this? Well, today, before starting to work on the third volume of “Alternative History”, I suddenly realized that those other versions of my spiritual self – are deities. But it’s like they are different deities, in a way. It’s as if I can be a different spiritual being because different spiritual beings are different Gods. And there is, indeed, a hierarchy – not just among spiritual people or angels, but also a hierarchy of Gods. And when I was spiritual before June 10th, or six months ago, or a year ago, I was embodying different versions of Gods. And I’ve noticed that there are probably two, three, or four Gods – seems like three. I can’t yet say the exact number. But I’m writing it down now because I’ll know for sure later. I also like documenting it when I’m just starting to sense something that I haven’t fully grasped yet. I like showing this journey to readers. And right now, it feels like there are, let’s say, two Gods. I used to embody one God, then another. And now, it’s as if I’m this third God.