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Posted: Mon Sep 23, 2024 12:51 pm
I will go blind and die. I need to urgently stop working. I always said that if I got an incurable disease, I know how to cure it. I just need to move into a different rhythm, a different world, without this tension. To enter a world completely without mind. And perhaps everything is interconnected, and it seems that I can still endure and work until September, complete my fourth volume, and set up businesses for friends until then. After September or by the end of September, I will need to say goodbye to the world of people to heal and avoid illness. There is this material world into which I always descended, and I feel like I can’t be in it anymore. I must move into a “mindless” world, and it feels like time is running out. I need to finish some material tasks and then leave, as I call it, to “cosmos”. There are so many unusual signs. And when it’s necessary for me to be in spirit and “cosmos”, it happens. It can happen in an instant for an hour, two, or a day. And then I return to the material vibrations where I do tasks. I keep jumping between these worlds. But my head always hurts a lot, as if it’s about to explode. Even headache pills don’t help. It doesn’t hurt today, but I have done and am doing things to keep it from hurting. I’ll describe what I’m doing.
A few days ago, maybe three or four days ago, I went for a massage again. And I started talking to a voice, but not the main God. This voice explains to me that the upper world has been unlocked for me. And indeed, my neck and shoulders stopped hurting. Whenever I start to feel tension from something, I immediately notice the cause and stop doing it, and the tension subsides. But the point is that my upper part – neck and shoulders – was blocked, and it always hurt a lot from control and concentration. Now it has passed. The Spirit healed it, or I healed it – it doesn’t matter. But the pain is gone, and the tension has eased. The Spirit, or the voice, told me three days ago that now I need to unblock the lower part. It said that I have no energy in the lower part, as if my legs are dead. And that’s why I feel pain when the masseur works on my legs. Because pain always occurs where there is a lack of attention; it’s what draws attention. And there’s no energy there, so the massage won’t help. I need to do many different exercises. It showed me all the options that are good for the legs, like squats, swimming, cycling, stretching. A couple of years ago, a monk appeared to me in a dream and said I would solve all my problems if I could place one leg at table height, standing on one leg on the floor and extending the other sideways. That kind of stretching was recommended. And now the
A few days ago, maybe three or four days ago, I went for a massage again. And I started talking to a voice, but not the main God. This voice explains to me that the upper world has been unlocked for me. And indeed, my neck and shoulders stopped hurting. Whenever I start to feel tension from something, I immediately notice the cause and stop doing it, and the tension subsides. But the point is that my upper part – neck and shoulders – was blocked, and it always hurt a lot from control and concentration. Now it has passed. The Spirit healed it, or I healed it – it doesn’t matter. But the pain is gone, and the tension has eased. The Spirit, or the voice, told me three days ago that now I need to unblock the lower part. It said that I have no energy in the lower part, as if my legs are dead. And that’s why I feel pain when the masseur works on my legs. Because pain always occurs where there is a lack of attention; it’s what draws attention. And there’s no energy there, so the massage won’t help. I need to do many different exercises. It showed me all the options that are good for the legs, like squats, swimming, cycling, stretching. A couple of years ago, a monk appeared to me in a dream and said I would solve all my problems if I could place one leg at table height, standing on one leg on the floor and extending the other sideways. That kind of stretching was recommended. And now the