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Posted: Mon Sep 23, 2024 12:59 pm
I don’t know what’s going on with people, whether they are sinful or righteous, at the animal level of development, or materially closed and intellectual, or those who are heart-centered but capricious. I really don’t know. I don’t communicate or interact with anyone or anything. I don’t know, really. Maybe everyone is struggling now, feeling anxious. I don’t know. I used to control and know this. Now I don’t. I only know that for those on my side, everything should be fine because I am fine.
But you brought up a point in your question that I probably wouldn’t have discussed otherwise, which is that my friend and I theoretically suggested that perhaps my light reaches him, and from him to his relatives, which is why they are changing. I wouldn’t even have mentioned this here. Because I need five coincidences to speak about it. And I no longer collect such coincidences or statistics, so I can’t say.
I can also list many interesting things that happen, for example, with me and my friend. And I would like to know what happens with all people, but I don’t ask or communicate. Maybe you are experiencing this too. But the essence is that my friend and I started experiencing this simultaneously, though we didn’t even understand it because we described it differently and it happened differently for us. But we realized it was the same. We both cannot eat. We are just nauseated. We can’t eat. The reaction to food is strange. Half of the food is intolerable, unbearable, can you imagine? Naturally, I always look at such things from a positive perspective. My friend, more humanly, perceives it as a disease and reacts negatively. I explain and reassure him that he won’t die, everything is fine. But he is more fearful of it than I am. For me, it’s not fear, of course, it’s unpleasant and shocking, truly. But I still try not to forget every second to view it positively, meaning everything is going according to plan, that I am transforming, that I am changing. I haven’t done anything wrong, I haven’t contracted anything, figuratively speaking, I’m not ill, I lead a proper lifestyle, and the fact that I am physically shaking for no reason means it’s definitely a transformation, something unique. I just need to, as Big Alexander said, endure this mutation, and it should pass. And so, for a month now, both my friend and I have been shaking. Differently, with delays. I experienced it first, and then he did. So, initially... though no, it happened differently. Something happened to him first. First, he couldn’t eat. Then he... became more comfortable with it. Then I couldn’t eat. Then I fell ill. Two weeks later, he fell ill. But it’s not exactly a disease. It feels like you have a fever, but the temperature is normal. You feel
But you brought up a point in your question that I probably wouldn’t have discussed otherwise, which is that my friend and I theoretically suggested that perhaps my light reaches him, and from him to his relatives, which is why they are changing. I wouldn’t even have mentioned this here. Because I need five coincidences to speak about it. And I no longer collect such coincidences or statistics, so I can’t say.
I can also list many interesting things that happen, for example, with me and my friend. And I would like to know what happens with all people, but I don’t ask or communicate. Maybe you are experiencing this too. But the essence is that my friend and I started experiencing this simultaneously, though we didn’t even understand it because we described it differently and it happened differently for us. But we realized it was the same. We both cannot eat. We are just nauseated. We can’t eat. The reaction to food is strange. Half of the food is intolerable, unbearable, can you imagine? Naturally, I always look at such things from a positive perspective. My friend, more humanly, perceives it as a disease and reacts negatively. I explain and reassure him that he won’t die, everything is fine. But he is more fearful of it than I am. For me, it’s not fear, of course, it’s unpleasant and shocking, truly. But I still try not to forget every second to view it positively, meaning everything is going according to plan, that I am transforming, that I am changing. I haven’t done anything wrong, I haven’t contracted anything, figuratively speaking, I’m not ill, I lead a proper lifestyle, and the fact that I am physically shaking for no reason means it’s definitely a transformation, something unique. I just need to, as Big Alexander said, endure this mutation, and it should pass. And so, for a month now, both my friend and I have been shaking. Differently, with delays. I experienced it first, and then he did. So, initially... though no, it happened differently. Something happened to him first. First, he couldn’t eat. Then he... became more comfortable with it. Then I couldn’t eat. Then I fell ill. Two weeks later, he fell ill. But it’s not exactly a disease. It feels like you have a fever, but the temperature is normal. You feel