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Posted: Mon Sep 23, 2024 1:32 pm
Chapter 10. Spirit of Underworld and False Spirit
On June 10, I connected to something, or rather, someone entered me, or I connected to something, and it was the main God. I previously described this in detail. But then this state disappeared again, it was like a temporary effect, and I returned to my usual state. Later, something happened to me again. I can’t pinpoint the exact date, but around June 6 or 7, beginning of July, I started to feel that previously I had a sensation of energy accumulating in my head, as if my head was connected to something. But now my head has become light, and energy seems to be accumulating inside, as if in my heart. My heart, chest, and back all burn, and my legs too, but my head is light. When I want to ask a question and hear an answer, I hear the voice not in my head as before, but inside myself. This state has persisted for a week or more and does not change. I don’t know what this is. I start to notice that I am performing habitual actions on autopilot based on old memory. What I eat, drink, the music I play, the films I watch, and my sleep schedule – all these actions are based on old habits. I realize that the new state within me slightly resists and wants something different. But I seem to be denying this and resisting this new inner nature that has entered or activated within me. I then understand that for the past week, I wanted to watch very intellectual or action-packed movies, particularly those about smart men. I was very drawn to the film “Casino” with Robert De Niro and “Catch Me If You Can” with Leonardo DiCaprio. I was attracted to all films about con artists, which stole my attention. Or some action films or super-action, brutal ones like “King Arthur.” I was magnetically drawn to these. I also noticed that I still play my classical music out of habit, but there’s not such a strong response to it as before. I started to switch music and saw that I preferred more active, noisy music, like orchestral pieces or Hans Zimmer’s soundtracks. This music, which exudes bravery, courage, and power, resonated more with me. I began to switch through different music, different frequencies. Regardless of whether the frequency is languid, classical, or something like the “Spirit of Justice”, I responded only to the more active tracks, almost like adrenaline. I wanted faster-paced music because the slower music seemed to slow me down, as if my rhythm was very fast. I also noticed a crazy concentration, attentiveness, clarity, focus, desire for justice, and a kind of courage and fearlessness. The music that resonated most was the soundtrack of Guy Ritchie’s “King Arthur.” I felt a crazy resonance, as if that’s how I feel inside. I realized that I hadn’t allowed
On June 10, I connected to something, or rather, someone entered me, or I connected to something, and it was the main God. I previously described this in detail. But then this state disappeared again, it was like a temporary effect, and I returned to my usual state. Later, something happened to me again. I can’t pinpoint the exact date, but around June 6 or 7, beginning of July, I started to feel that previously I had a sensation of energy accumulating in my head, as if my head was connected to something. But now my head has become light, and energy seems to be accumulating inside, as if in my heart. My heart, chest, and back all burn, and my legs too, but my head is light. When I want to ask a question and hear an answer, I hear the voice not in my head as before, but inside myself. This state has persisted for a week or more and does not change. I don’t know what this is. I start to notice that I am performing habitual actions on autopilot based on old memory. What I eat, drink, the music I play, the films I watch, and my sleep schedule – all these actions are based on old habits. I realize that the new state within me slightly resists and wants something different. But I seem to be denying this and resisting this new inner nature that has entered or activated within me. I then understand that for the past week, I wanted to watch very intellectual or action-packed movies, particularly those about smart men. I was very drawn to the film “Casino” with Robert De Niro and “Catch Me If You Can” with Leonardo DiCaprio. I was attracted to all films about con artists, which stole my attention. Or some action films or super-action, brutal ones like “King Arthur.” I was magnetically drawn to these. I also noticed that I still play my classical music out of habit, but there’s not such a strong response to it as before. I started to switch music and saw that I preferred more active, noisy music, like orchestral pieces or Hans Zimmer’s soundtracks. This music, which exudes bravery, courage, and power, resonated more with me. I began to switch through different music, different frequencies. Regardless of whether the frequency is languid, classical, or something like the “Spirit of Justice”, I responded only to the more active tracks, almost like adrenaline. I wanted faster-paced music because the slower music seemed to slow me down, as if my rhythm was very fast. I also noticed a crazy concentration, attentiveness, clarity, focus, desire for justice, and a kind of courage and fearlessness. The music that resonated most was the soundtrack of Guy Ritchie’s “King Arthur.” I felt a crazy resonance, as if that’s how I feel inside. I realized that I hadn’t allowed