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Posted: Mon Sep 23, 2024 4:06 pm
It is now August 20, 2024.
It turns out that something has happened to me again over the last three days. I noticed that I’m in a Spirit, but in a different one. If I were to compare or align it with something, I remembered that when I was physically decoding the matrix, gluing it together from sticks, I was in a somewhat similar state. This was back when I was finishing the second volume in October 2023. Somehow, I didn’t consciously do anything for this to happen, but I started feeling differently, like... the state is clear, but when you are in this Spirit – let’s call it the Spirit of logic and mind – it’s like how scientists are portrayed: they can completely forget to eat or sleep, and when they lie down or wake up, all they have in their heads are formulas. They can even forget to put on clothes or not remember what they are wearing. When they are working on something, the Spirit descends upon them. That’s how it is expressed in sacred language. But if we speak scientifically, it’s as though they connect to a source, one of the main sources that govern mind and logic. Together with this main God, or rather Spirit, they start creating something, solving something, or inventing something. And I started decoding the matrix again, or more precisely, when I decoded it in October, the Spirit was guiding me, directly telling me how to solve it. It all began when the Spirit told me to sit in the corner of the room and visualize seven corners in front of me to understand where to begin constructing the matrix. Then, as I read the sacred scriptures, the Spirit would highlight the things I needed to focus on... So whatever I needed to contemplate, He illuminated it, and that’s what I did. And that’s how I ended up with the matrix, where I depicted everything that is mentioned in the sacred texts – when they describe the tetramorph, when they describe the fiery chariot, when they describe the Throne of Glory, when they describe some heavenly kingdom guarded by four creatures or four cherubim. Seriously, it felt as though I didn’t belong to myself, as if some force was doing all of this through me. It felt like something had entered me and was simply doing the work, and it couldn’t be stopped. I remember that when I was working on that matrix, I felt so unwell – nauseated and dizzy, like being motion-sick in a car or boat. It was as if I was sitting at the table, but everything around me was spinning, like the room or even the entire planet was spinning, and I had to hold on to avoid throwing up. That’s what it felt like. I remember feeling so ill that I would even fall asleep during the day, losing control over myself, while working on the matrix back in October. To put it into context,
It turns out that something has happened to me again over the last three days. I noticed that I’m in a Spirit, but in a different one. If I were to compare or align it with something, I remembered that when I was physically decoding the matrix, gluing it together from sticks, I was in a somewhat similar state. This was back when I was finishing the second volume in October 2023. Somehow, I didn’t consciously do anything for this to happen, but I started feeling differently, like... the state is clear, but when you are in this Spirit – let’s call it the Spirit of logic and mind – it’s like how scientists are portrayed: they can completely forget to eat or sleep, and when they lie down or wake up, all they have in their heads are formulas. They can even forget to put on clothes or not remember what they are wearing. When they are working on something, the Spirit descends upon them. That’s how it is expressed in sacred language. But if we speak scientifically, it’s as though they connect to a source, one of the main sources that govern mind and logic. Together with this main God, or rather Spirit, they start creating something, solving something, or inventing something. And I started decoding the matrix again, or more precisely, when I decoded it in October, the Spirit was guiding me, directly telling me how to solve it. It all began when the Spirit told me to sit in the corner of the room and visualize seven corners in front of me to understand where to begin constructing the matrix. Then, as I read the sacred scriptures, the Spirit would highlight the things I needed to focus on... So whatever I needed to contemplate, He illuminated it, and that’s what I did. And that’s how I ended up with the matrix, where I depicted everything that is mentioned in the sacred texts – when they describe the tetramorph, when they describe the fiery chariot, when they describe the Throne of Glory, when they describe some heavenly kingdom guarded by four creatures or four cherubim. Seriously, it felt as though I didn’t belong to myself, as if some force was doing all of this through me. It felt like something had entered me and was simply doing the work, and it couldn’t be stopped. I remember that when I was working on that matrix, I felt so unwell – nauseated and dizzy, like being motion-sick in a car or boat. It was as if I was sitting at the table, but everything around me was spinning, like the room or even the entire planet was spinning, and I had to hold on to avoid throwing up. That’s what it felt like. I remember feeling so ill that I would even fall asleep during the day, losing control over myself, while working on the matrix back in October. To put it into context,