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[Alexandr Korol]

That’s just how I felt. And Big Alexander is hiding something too, something that might scare me and you. And I feel like Valentina is hiding something as well, something that would scare both me and you. And, as I’ve said, information is always given in doses by the system. It’s always provided at the right time, at the right moment, so it doesn’t influence our life path. So, figuratively speaking, if I had known earlier what I don’t know, what they haven’t told me, I might not have written this book. And maybe I wouldn’t be where I am now. And so, it turns out that such information is given only to those who don’t react to it, to those who won’t speak about it. This summer, the main God was hinting at me as well. He told me that many secrets wouldn’t be revealed to me until I finished the book. Well, I won’t stop writing books because, you see, the way I write is so unusual. It’s as if I’m... How can I describe it? I’m like... I need a good example. Well, I’m like a punching bag, as harsh as that sounds. And the truth is, for people who might find some of my chapters or moments in the books strike at their pride, their ego, it’s unfortunate that they react that way. Those readers with a slightly tarnished soul. Because not everything is as sweet as they might think. Some might think that I’ve deluded myself into believing that I’m God, that I’m great, that I’ve made myself into something, but that’s not true at all. I never wanted that, I don’t want that, and there’s nothing great about it. Believe me, I write these books out of the fear of God, not because I think I’m super strong. I’m just scared, and there’s no other choice. And that’s the way the books are written: my life is gone, my personality is erased, and I’m just this puppet, this example, this template for all the adventures that could be given to people. And I experience them on my own skin, just to describe them in the books, so that the novel becomes like a first-person account. Because I couldn’t artificially come up with such a novel, and the system couldn’t control me or the novel, controlling what happens in my life versus what needs to be written artificially for the readers. That’s why I’m anonymized, and my whole life, which doesn’t belong to me, serves as an example of this main character. The system, or God, does whatever it wants with me, as long as it fits into the plot of this multi-volume “Alternative history”. It’s as if I’ll only be released when the novel is finished. And God, the main one, said that only when I finish writing will He be able to tell me something or I can do something, because it won’t interfere with the book anymore.