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[Alexandr Korol]

And what else? The Mystic-Old-Man said that I will decipher the matrix, but I won’t publish it in the fifth volume – that will already be in the next book. On one hand, that’s good to hear. Why? Because it means we’re still alive. It means I will still be alive. On one hand, I can honestly say that I am truly exhausted from working on books – because apart from them, I can’t do anything else, I’m not allowed to do anything else, and it is really exhausting. It’s insane work. It’s extremely difficult work. And on one hand, I was hoping that the fifth volume would be the last. But on the other hand, well, it’s great that there will be something more. I don’t know if it will be a continuation of this novel or something completely different, but at least there will be something again, which means I will still be alive. But again, it’s unclear why. Because if I take all my analytical calculations of when and what might happen, then maybe by that time – what was it I said about March? Or when is the solar eclipse in 2025? That period is exactly the time when the Gods, after being born on December 25, would later die. And if it’s in March, then that’s January, February, March... Maybe I still have time to complete a whole sixth volume before then. For example, finish the fifth volume before the New Year, and then in January, February, and early March, maybe I can manage to write the sixth. Or maybe... Again, time is so distorted. Maybe everything I’m writing, everything that is to come – it will happen, of course – but maybe it’s all happening with a delay, maybe with a gap of ten years. Maybe all of this will actually begin in ten years, or in twenty. Because if we take the Kalki Purana, it mentions age – there was something about a certain age, something significant happening when he turns 50. So, the question remains – what is better? So, you see, it all comes down to the fact that I wanted to finish everything quickly, but to finish means to die. And so, what’s the point of rushing to finish? It turns out that the later I finish, the longer I live. But on the other hand, is it necessary? Is it worth it? No, well, of course, it is. After all, I am still a person, like all of you. Maybe I am different in my mental state, but still, I have a family – relatives, you, friends – we are all connected in some way, and all of this is somehow connected to Russia. So that is reassuring. What conclusion can be drawn? At the very least, I can already see a life path until the end of March. Because I really dislike those crossroads, when one cycle ends, and the new one hasn’t yet begun. All of September, I was adjusting, reformatting, readapting – I was chewing through and spitting