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[Alexandr Korol]

messages with another as frequently. It’s very unusual because, in reality, I ended up in a different world – that’s what happened seven years ago. I’m just using this as an example. And here I realize that, for instance, Olya, Masha, Petya, Slava – who were part of one world – I was friends with them, talking to them for six months or a year. And then, suddenly, they just disappeared, out of nowhere. I didn’t understand why. And at the same time, others appeared – Gena, Seryozha, Katya, Lyuba. New people started to show up, they suddenly remembered me, I remembered them, and I wanted to see them, talk to them, message them – and they felt the same way about me. Can you imagine? It’s a paradox. Ten years ago, I was keeping journals year after year, and I kept encountering this phenomenon, but it was difficult to pinpoint exactly what was happening. When I did notice these moments, I described them as “I have now switched to the spiritual world” or “I have now switched to the material world.” Back then, I saw it as just two opposing worlds – spiritual and material – because I hadn’t yet developed the level of detail I have now. At times, I assumed that I had caused the switch myself, while at other times, I suspected it wasn’t me but rather the system, the nature of reality we live in. A cycle had begun, and it was inevitable. So if a material cycle started, all the spiritual people would disappear from my life, spirituality wouldn’t manifest, and I would shift entirely into the material world. And then I started noticing the opposite as well. I would be in the material world, everything seemed great, everything was going well, and then suddenly – boom – all the people from the material world disappeared, all material matters seemed to stop working out, and instead, “cosmos,” adventures, paradoxes, and spirituality completely took over, following me everywhere. And I would think, “What is happening?” Imagine experiencing this over and over again, year after year. Why is it that in some years, this shift is more noticeable, while in others, it is less so? In reality, it also depends on your social life. We constantly switch between spiritual and material states, but social life determines how much your spirituality manifests socially or how much your material life manifests socially. If you’re an antisocial person, it’s actually harder to notice whether you’re in the spiritual or material phase. Because if you just sit at home and watch movies, the only thing you might notice is that suddenly you no longer want to watch “Donnie Darko” or series like “Mr. Robot”, and instead, you feel drawn to “The Wolf of Wall Street”