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[Alexandr Korol]

to decide whether to change my tickets or not. Again, there are three options: either I extend my stay here in Nepal – though traveling here is really difficult, whether by plane, helicopter, or a ten-hour drive through the mountains – or I fly to one country, or to another. That’s what’s being decided now.
What else? I start processing everything and realize – starting from the 30th – that, aha! Yes, it all makes sense. All this time, I still couldn’t clearly distinguish what was good and what was bad, because it’s very difficult to tell. And because of that, I could get confused myself, people could confuse me, or lead me away from something. These are all illusions, systems – after all, people are all connected to systems, and these systems influence one another. But I am supposed to step outside of all these systems and be above them. But it’s not just about some highest system protecting and shaping me – I have to fully understand it myself, be able to explain it, and grasp it with my mind. I need to know it both in theory and in practice. I realize that this entire path I’ve been going through is truly some kind of preparation. And that up until now, this entire time – I haven’t even become who I am supposed to be yet. That all these books I’ve been writing, everything happening to me – it’s just part of some transformation process turning me into someone. And only when this transformation process is complete, that’s when I will have to announce myself. But how to announce? In theory, it has already happened in a miniature form. And what’s most interesting is that ten years ago, I wrote about this: “Guys, here are my readers, there are just a few of you, here are my books, here I am. All of this is only in Russian for now. But one day in the future, when the time comes, this will be on a global scale. Right now, I am just rehearsing.” And it wasn’t a joke. It really wasn’t even a rehearsal – I would rather call it preparation. And now, after all this time preparing, I realize that something is about to happen soon. The voice tells me that I will be in my own kind of cosmos, completely immersed, just broadcasting based on my books. And that some people will get furious, some will want to break me, some will want to judge me, and some will believe in me and follow me. That it will unfold on a global scale – just like in the Netflix series “Messiah”, something like that. And I think, “Unbelievable.” I understand that, in principle, the time has already come. That I should probably start sitting down and recording videos about my books, for my books – analyzing “Alternative History”, explaining everything. And that something