The last thing that caught my attention, which I noted down, is that there is not only a chariot with the sun and white horses, but there is also one with black horses. And that this is the moon, that this is the dark force, and that it is the same thing. That the point is exactly this – that the dark and the light are the same. And what Mystic-Old-Man hinted at when he said that the dark forces, the demons that Buddha encountered, were actually himself. And now Alexander has told me that I should not resist the dark forces or be against them, but that I must accept them, and then they will become friends. And as if this is the essence – that God is both dark and light. And this is exactly what is happening in my transformation, that I must not only know and control the light but also acknowledge the dark. That is, let’s put it this way – all the parasite-people whom I used to criticize in my books, writing that all people who do evil must be punished, I must not do that at all. That is, I was speaking as if from the perspective of the Sun or from the perspective of the light. But if I now fully reveal myself to both the light and the dark, then they too, so to speak, are in quotation marks “my children,” meaning even the parasites. And as long as I consider them parasites and condemn them, there will be this battle – me against them, them against me. But as soon as I recognize and accept them as part of nature, this struggle will end, and I will pass this test. And right now, as I am structuring all of this in my head, my head is spinning.
- Read the Wikipedia articles: “Middle Way,” “Buddha,” “Bodhisattva,” “Maitreya.”