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[Alexandr Korol]

said that the third volume would attract more attention. I’m also considering the fact that I am this... How should I put it? I am this anomaly. An anomaly. That people and readers might think that I already know everything, that I am already unique and immortal, that I am God, or however they might describe me. And that I have come in this form, hiding in the image of a human, and leisurely, in a somewhat playful manner, carrying out my certain task while gradually revealing all this information in my books – some people might assume that. But I want to immediately dispel all these thoughts and speculations and sincerely say that no, this is not quite the case. In the literal sense of the word, I do not know what I am supposed to decipher, and for me, it remains a mystery. I am going through this journey, and as I work on the fifth volume, I am literally straining my mind to decipher all the stages of the Sun. I understand that only when I fully decode this, something will switch within me again, and I will be even more formed. But I am still in the process of forming. I am not yet 100% the God of the Sun. To become the God of the Sun – or rather, to become God – I am not there yet. Right now, I am merely coming to a deeper understanding of the boundaries of worlds, discovering my own states, understanding these spirits. And only when I fully grasp this will I start seeing these boundaries even more clearly in everything. The entire world must be laid out into four boxes. For example, let me give you a simple human example: you can show me any sweater, any movie, or any city, and I will immediately say whether it belongs to the sky, the earth, the underworld, or the afterlife. I will immediately determine whether it is morning, day, evening, or night. I will instantly say whether it is spring, summer, autumn, or winter. Everything must be structured with precise boundaries. And these boundaries – I now understand through everything in the fifth volume – are what I must reach. I am reading my own writing, reflecting on what I have written, and seeing that the Mystic-Old-Man confirmed it when he said that the three golden apples I seek will not be found in the fifth volume. See? But in the fifth volume, he said that just as everything began in the Spirit with death, so it will end. And this is exactly what is happening now. The fifth volume began with the theme of death, the Spirit of Death, and then transitioned into the realization that there are four moods – there is the Sun – and I began to engage with the idea that the Sun exists, the God of the Sun. And now I must return to the theme of death and fully understand what it is.