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Posted: Wed Apr 30, 2025 2:55 pm
Where does it come from? And who am I, then? Why is all of this encoded everywhere in such an incomprehensible way? And in the first and second volumes, I begin to assume that while I had not yet completed the first volume, I was still just a human. But when I deciphered this matrix on August 30, 2023, it was as if something looped, like the wheel of the ouroboros, and I became someone — something clicked, and from that peak, time itself opened up before me, as if I could suddenly see the entire future life of a new era. How is that possible? I don’t know. What is this? I don’t know. Seriously, I don’t know. And I start to realize that perhaps — there is a very good example, one that I think will help illustrate the essence of what I am trying to convey — the example of vampires. Because I understand that you, people, think very literally, materially, with a rather rigid mind, so let’s use the example of vampires. Just imagine, here you are, Vasya, and today you are still a mortal human in the literal sense — you need to eat, if you get sick, you’ll die; if you don’t Just imagine: there is you, Vasya, and today you are still a mortal human, literally mortal — if you don’t eat, you’ll get sick and die; if you cross the street on a red light, you’ll get hit by a car and die. And then, today, a vampire bites you, and from this very moment, you become immortal. But as if, you see, just yesterday you were mortal, and that fact somehow reflected differently on who you are today. That is, yesterday and today. But from this evening, when you became immortal, something seems to have looped. Because if you are immortal, then you exist somewhere in some distant future, and that means that consciousness, where you exist there, somehow completed this loop and returned to you again, and it’s as if you are both there and here, and something has closed in a cycle because you are now immortal. And that sensation was very similar to what I experienced when I completed the first volume and deciphered the matrix. And in the second volume, when I physically unraveled it, drawing everything out, sketching it — I felt as if this “becoming the Son of God” was the moment I was actually born. And at that moment, I started drawing this interesting analogy: it seemed extremely dangerous, as if there were risks that, before finishing the first volume of “Alternative History”, things could have changed and turned out completely differently. And here, as if after completing the first volume, I felt that everything had become irreversible, and from the very moment I finished the first volume, it was as if all the future across all times had already been drawn, as if I was everywhere, everything had