And different shapes start to emerge: at first, I get a compass and a square, then the “32 paths to God,” as in Kabbalah, then an eight-pointed star appears—and from there, I could keep drawing endlessly — something emerges that looks like a square within a square, if viewed in a flat plane. And I draw all of this. And then Big Alexander tells me that this is the Philosopher’s Stone, that people have searched for it all their lives and have been unable to find it, that if one finds it, they can control the entire world, become immortal, and know everything. He says that the entire world, the universe, the structure of DNA — everything — is arranged according to this Philosopher’s Stone. I’m still quite young, listening to all of this, and he tells me that I need to decipher it, that people cannot see it because they look at things in a flat, superficial way, but I, like a child, with the eyes of a child, can see what others cannot, and that I must solve it. And so, while deciphering it, I simultaneously examined every mention I could find in ancient scriptures or religious texts about similar places, formulas, the matrix of God, or something of that sort. And then I open the Revelation of John the Theologian, Apocalypse, chapter 4 — here it is now before me. It says: “After this I looked, and, behold, a door was opened in heaven: and the first voice which I heard was as it were of a trumpet talking with me; which said, Come up hither, and I will shew thee things which must be hereafter.
And immediately I was in the spirit: and, behold, a throne was set in heaven, and one sat on the throne. And he that sat was to look upon like a jasper and a sardine stone: and there was a rainbow round about the throne, in sight like unto an emerald.
And round about the throne were four and twenty seats: and upon the seats I saw four and twenty elders sitting, clothed in white raiment; and they had on their heads crowns of gold.
And out of the throne proceeded lightnings and thunderings and voices: and there were seven lamps of fire burning before the throne, which are the seven Spirits of God. And before the throne there was a sea of glass like unto crystal: and in the midst of the throne, and round about the throne, were four beasts full of eyes before and behind.” (Revelation 4:1-6, KJV)
And I just fixate on what won’t let me rest — why these numbers? What is this formula? What is this place? Why is it described this way? Even then,