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[Alexandr Korol]

was destined to be, then I already know everything. So He — that is, I — returns here and tells me all of this. That’s the paradox. Well, I understand that I need to monitor each of my days, each of my weeks, my week, month, half-year, year, cycle, season, to record: “And in which world am I now? In the world of the sky, or in the world of the earth, or in the world of the underworld?” — after all, it must be one of the three, or a fourth option. But the fourth option, as they say, is unmistakable. And I begin to monitor this, I begin to record it, I begin to attach great significance to it, which, in principle, is what I refer to in general, and what I refer all my readers to in the fourth volume, saying: “Guys, think about it too, recall and observe, and also in the future, how you lived this week or this day today. What kind of world is this? Is it the sky, the earth, or the underworld? After all, it must be one of the three. There are no other options, you cannot be disconnected from everything, you are still assigned to one of these three worlds. That is, one of these three spirits stands behind you.”
And then I realize that true liberation from these three worlds is a kind of self- denial, but in moderation, of course, without fanaticism, without social media posts to attract people’s attention, as everyone does in this show. No. The point is that in order to become this fourth God, which I begin to strive for in the fourth volume of “Alternative History,” it is as if all these three worlds are still extremes, and the fourth world is a regulated version of these three worlds. As if in these three worlds, you must identify the most essential things, what you truly need, what does not harm you, and from the combination of these three, a kind of fourth, balanced world is formed, where you simply sit, drink tea, write a book, and that’s it. And despite the temptation of the world of the sky, or the temptation of the world of the earth, or the temptation of the world of the underworld, you do not fall for any of it. That is, you no longer have this urge to “fall for the feelings of the world of the sky,” to drop everything and become a creative, independent person, falling in love with someone unknown. You no longer succumb to such illusions. And just as in the world of Earth, you no longer become some kind of robot who has set a rigid program for himself — thinking that, since he can control everything in his life, he must control everyone, achieve everything, and discipline everything. In this, too, you calm yourself down, realizing that, in principle, you don’t need much. The same applies to the underworld. The underworld is, in fact, a vast world, a very large one.