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[Alexandr Korol]

negativity — without even knowing where it came from — if I take a photograph in this state, that negativity will be captured forever. If I choose a friend or a colleague while in this negativity, if I make a playlist, or if I go shopping, then I am making choices from within that negative world, reinforcing myself even more in that reality. This has always been my approach since childhood, even though I didn’t know what it was back then. I just understood that negativity must not be allowed to grow. I could simply shut myself in at home, sit, and just sleep. But I knew that I must not text anyone, call anyone, or even read messages, because I couldn’t trust myself — I might react incorrectly to even the simplest message from my mother. For some reason, I was always vigilant and knew that this required control. But at the same time, I constantly witnessed how many people would wake up on the wrong foot — without even noticing that they had been kind yesterday and today they were not — and would start acting from a negative perception, from a negative perspective through which they now saw everyone. They would start writing nasty things to me, to you, to others, firing people, scolding everyone, behaving out of character. And then, after a day or two, that same person would apologize. I often noticed such occurrences. I always wanted to find the reason behind it, and I always said that there must be some natural phenomenon, like cycles, like the seasons of the year, where a person suddenly starts to feel this dark force tempting them, and for some reason, they begin to give in to it. I also always asserted that there is a second option — when you yourself did something wrong. Meaning, you stumbled, did something dark, or got involved with a dark person, which caused your perception to shift. You ended up under this dark lens, under what I called a “dark frequency,” and because of this, you start seeing everything negatively and reacting negatively to everything. And now, imagine this — while working on the fourth volume, this starts happening to me as well. Naturally, I probably disappeared for a week because I couldn’t let this be imprinted in the book. This is a huge responsibility toward people — I must study only the light. And yet, here I was, suddenly thrown into darkness for no reason. I wasn’t in that darkness for a whole week, but I could feel how it had been manifesting even earlier. That’s why I previously mentioned that I started feeling cold in my bedroom, even though I hadn’t changed the temperature settings, yet it kept getting colder. This is a very important detail. That cold — this coldness — is extremely