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[Alexandr Korol]

Question: How did you make the decision to leave home? Was it a material decision or a decision made “in the “cosmos”” after the turning point? What exactly happened? What other sensations and events preceded the first meditation and communication with the voice? I understand that these may seem like insignificant details in the context of the story, but I first read the book when I was 19, and as a very homebound teenager, that act felt like a feat — so strong, adult, and shocking. Perhaps that’s just my perspective.

But first of all, of course, it’s not a good example for readers, the fact that’s mentioned in the book — that I left home. And let’s say that today it’s no longer relevant for young people, but back then it was a different period. But it’s my personal story. How did it happen? Again, it’s the force. You see, someone can be moved or controlled by a dark force — you can’t just blindly trust all your feelings and thoughts and surrender to them. They might not come from the light force, but from the dark one. I was just lucky that I’ve always been moved by the light force, which protects me and, on the contrary, upholds those very high values and morals. Many people think they can just let everything go and trust that the system, that God, will guide them. But the question is — to which God are they connected? First, you have to have a pure heart and be sure that even if you surrender to God, the thoughts and desires that appear, the ones you’re ready to trust without thinking, will still be from the light. Because you can surrender to the force, to nature, and think that you’ve given yourself to God, but in fact, you’re plugged into sin and the dark force. And everything you want and everything you’re offered — if you agree to it — you’ll only harm yourself and your loved ones. So first you must be sure that your heart is activated and pure, and that you are connected to nature, to God. Back then, believe me, I couldn’t have known this and didn’t think like that. I was just lucky. But it turned out to be... yes, just a simple, primitive story. At graduation, all the kids came with their parents — I came alone. All the kids were picked up after the ceremony, but no one came for me. So I walked home all morning, came home upset and everything. And I decided that I wanted to take my life into my own hands, that I wasn’t ready to rely on my parents. I’ve always been like that — I never wanted help. You know, there are people who are always dependent on someone — on friends, always chasing relationships, always needing