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[Alexandr Korol]

just partially, separately, to reveal this information further, which later allowed me to describe everything in more depth in my novel “Alternative History.” That’s how it all works.

And so, returning to the question: “Am I worthy of being someone?”, “First, you have to accept yourself, not want anything”, “What can I do, what can’t I do?”. Probably, for a person to be, let’s say, aware or open, as it’s often called, spiritual, whatever other words there are, this person must first be free from all these desires, whims, so none of that should be present. That is, you accept yourself as you are: big ears, a big nose, maybe you have weaknesses in something, maybe you can’t draw. You accept everything as it is and that’s it, without trying to hide any of it with manipulations. You acknowledge yourself as you are, with all your strengths and weaknesses – that’s the first thing. And secondly, if you serve God, if you serve the system, as a musician, then write music, and think only about your soul always being open, so your heart burns and you write music. That should be the priority, and then success will follow. But you shouldn’t think about success, you should think about keeping your heart burning, sincerely creating from nature, from God, and everything else is secondary.

The “not allowed” you’re asking about, how did I understand this measure? Well, simply put, you must never allow anything to even slightly pull you off your path. For example, imagine a musician in poverty, hungry, sitting alone at home, and he writes a unique album, and everyone is shocked and amazed by it. But he must continue to sit and write like that. What happens next? He starts living in a luxurious place with people, builds relationships, starts arranging trips, begins running social media, discussing everyday life with people, asking about apartments, cars, and then he wonders why his talent is slipping away. Why doesn’t his next album appeal to people? Or why does it feel empty and lack energy? Because his heart turned off. He went into daily life, into society. A person must remain hungry. For instance, when I write books, and now, even as I answer questions, I haven’t eaten. What’s food got to do with it? And these desires that people always have – to be someone, to prove something to their parents, classmates – I always noticed that everyone is concerned with what others will think of them. And because of this, they live not by their soul,