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[Alexandr Korol]

I saw many interesting icons in which I again began to see riddles, hidden symbols, meanings, this formula, the matrix. Naturally, with curiosity, I began looking for all the icons that exist, the rarest ones. It was very interesting. I looked at the various gestures, the positions of their hands, how they held their fingers, who was depicted where, from which side. In general, it was all fascinating. Of course, I liked the icons more where a lot of detail was depicted. For example, the icon of the “Last Judgment”: I wanted to make out something, see something, understand something. What if this is the time now? Yes, but primarily what matched was that there was the messenger Hope, and then there was the messenger Lyubov. And after this messenger Lyubov, I ended up working at the church, where suddenly I stumbled upon the icon of “Faith, Hope, Love, and their mother Sophia.” And that was it – I was in shock, I understood that this was some kind of path, that these were qualities a person must probably acquire within themselves, like faith, hope, and love, and then they come to Sophia, which is love for wisdom. And I thought, “Wow.” After that, I became insanely interested in Orthodoxy, well, in Christianity in general. Naturally, I bought a Bible and started studying everything, including the Prayer Book. In the Bible, I only read the beginning and the end, never the middle, even though everyone said I should. I said, “I think the most important thing to know is the beginning and the end,” that was my personal approach. And when I read the beginning and the end, I started seeing again that everything was encrypted there; it wouldn’t let me go, that it was all a matrix, the philosopher’s stone, and that even Sophia exists in Orthodoxy. And I thought, “Wow.” So, since that moment, since 2010, to this day, I’ve had a great interest in the church. I was, of course, baptized before, but I still didn’t quite... I always, when passing by, would naturally go into any church if I saw it. But it became... Let’s put it this way, it sparked even more interest in the church for me. Now every Orthodox holiday is important to me, I’ve read about each one, studied it all, and it’s all interesting to me. I always try to observe the fast, and I don’t always succeed, I admit. Also, of course, I always recommend it to others. Because I began to understand the purpose of it all. That a person, especially in our time, in the 21st century, who is very influenced by society, social networks, all of that, plus there’s a huge temptation – so much food, so much given to people, and all of this strongly, let’s say, intoxicates a person, stuns a person.