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Posted: Fri Jun 13, 2025 6:06 pm
Although everyone thinks they’re all living in the same world, in reality, they’re living in different worlds. The point is that when you’re in the social-material world, you live more through your mind, logic, analytics, and all that. And I was like that. But then it was as if all that... I disconnected from it, it turned off inside me after my understanding, and my heart turned back on, this creativity, this magic. And then, when my heart turned on, he congratulated me, saying I could now listen to my heart, nature within me, God, and that whatever I wanted, I could trust it, do it — but only in the world of the heart. In the world of the mind, it’s as if you need to make decisions with your mind, not trust your feelings, but here it’s as if you can trust your inner voice, your feelings. That’s when I started hearing the voice again. And all of this was part of cycles in life, which I later analyze in my books “Alternative History”, that it wasn’t just by chance. There were periods when I, so to speak, became material, then spiritually creative, then material again — these were all certain cycles of the Sun’s mood.
So, returning to the question of what New York gave me? Well, I spent time in the city that, again, every city and country exists in a different stage of time: some live in the past, some in the present, some in the future. I think I reached a peak after traveling to many countries. I chose New York specifically to live in — it was a city that I liked. I saw that the people there were interesting, from all over the world, unique — I liked it. It felt like everything came from there, you know, like there were some sources, maybe not just one, maybe several, from which everything is created, and then it gets copied and replicated throughout the world, across all countries and cities. I felt like in the United States, I was at some kind of source, like everything was coming from here to the rest of the world. But still, I couldn’t shake the thought that sooner or later, this divine beam that shines over the United States would stop shining there and begin to shine over Russia, because I always held this idea that Russia has a future, a golden age, that Russia will be the number one country in the world in the future. I understood that at that moment, when I was in New York, it was still a central point of world management, it was like it was here, but in the future, it would be in St. Petersburg — that’s how I thought at the time. How old was I then? Twenty-six, twenty-seven, when I came to New York, when I was congratulated on having conquered the social-material world.
So, returning to the question of what New York gave me? Well, I spent time in the city that, again, every city and country exists in a different stage of time: some live in the past, some in the present, some in the future. I think I reached a peak after traveling to many countries. I chose New York specifically to live in — it was a city that I liked. I saw that the people there were interesting, from all over the world, unique — I liked it. It felt like everything came from there, you know, like there were some sources, maybe not just one, maybe several, from which everything is created, and then it gets copied and replicated throughout the world, across all countries and cities. I felt like in the United States, I was at some kind of source, like everything was coming from here to the rest of the world. But still, I couldn’t shake the thought that sooner or later, this divine beam that shines over the United States would stop shining there and begin to shine over Russia, because I always held this idea that Russia has a future, a golden age, that Russia will be the number one country in the world in the future. I understood that at that moment, when I was in New York, it was still a central point of world management, it was like it was here, but in the future, it would be in St. Petersburg — that’s how I thought at the time. How old was I then? Twenty-six, twenty-seven, when I came to New York, when I was congratulated on having conquered the social-material world.