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Posted: Fri Jun 13, 2025 6:06 pm
Question: In the first 100 pages, after you’ve gone through all the stages of the material world and freed yourself from it, you ask Big Alexander again who you are, to which he replies that you are a preacher. How did you understand for yourself at that moment what he meant by calling you that?
At that time, seriously, when he said that, I didn’t perceive it as someone simply transmitting information. I took it more in a religious sense, like I was some kind of wise elder carrying something to the people. I perceived it too theatrically, visualizing it in a cinematic way, thinking of myself, metaphorically speaking, as Moses. But then I reflected on what he said, on the word “preacher,” and I realized that it’s just the 21st century — I’m not supposed to be some Moses with a beard. It’s silly to apply that kind of image to the 21st century. We have to remember that we’re in the 21st century. Even if some unique world events happen, they will look modern. A preacher is someone who carries the truth, acting as an intermediary from God to the people. I think that’s what he meant. I wouldn’t say I gave it much thought. I know myself that there are periods in time when I am deeply in the Spirit, and there are times when I’m at a crossroads, feeling a little lost, not understanding where to turn or what’s happening. These are temporary phenomena, but they do happen. And in those moments, I might start asking silly questions in my head and, naturally, ask Big Alexander. I’ve asked him many times, “Who am I? Who am I? Who am I?” and every time he gives me something new, but he never directly says who I am. So, when he said that I was a preacher, well, how else could I interpret it? He needed to give an answer because I was waiting for it, so he gave one, but he never directly told me who I am. I don’t really know what he meant by the word “preaching.” Probably, it’s still about being a knowledgeable person, someone who should... You know, he used to say back in 2010, that the people would follow me, I would lead them. When I was younger, I took that literally, visualizing it as if I were walking, like in a movie, and the people were following me, like in the film “Exodus: Gods and Kings” about Moses. But no, the people are not going to follow me like that — it’s more about ideology. It’s quite possible that there are people now, say, growing up, but beyond just being raised, they follow certain artists, bloggers — there are a lot of these people now. So, there’s an artist, and behind him is a large number of his followers, or rather listeners,
At that time, seriously, when he said that, I didn’t perceive it as someone simply transmitting information. I took it more in a religious sense, like I was some kind of wise elder carrying something to the people. I perceived it too theatrically, visualizing it in a cinematic way, thinking of myself, metaphorically speaking, as Moses. But then I reflected on what he said, on the word “preacher,” and I realized that it’s just the 21st century — I’m not supposed to be some Moses with a beard. It’s silly to apply that kind of image to the 21st century. We have to remember that we’re in the 21st century. Even if some unique world events happen, they will look modern. A preacher is someone who carries the truth, acting as an intermediary from God to the people. I think that’s what he meant. I wouldn’t say I gave it much thought. I know myself that there are periods in time when I am deeply in the Spirit, and there are times when I’m at a crossroads, feeling a little lost, not understanding where to turn or what’s happening. These are temporary phenomena, but they do happen. And in those moments, I might start asking silly questions in my head and, naturally, ask Big Alexander. I’ve asked him many times, “Who am I? Who am I? Who am I?” and every time he gives me something new, but he never directly says who I am. So, when he said that I was a preacher, well, how else could I interpret it? He needed to give an answer because I was waiting for it, so he gave one, but he never directly told me who I am. I don’t really know what he meant by the word “preaching.” Probably, it’s still about being a knowledgeable person, someone who should... You know, he used to say back in 2010, that the people would follow me, I would lead them. When I was younger, I took that literally, visualizing it as if I were walking, like in a movie, and the people were following me, like in the film “Exodus: Gods and Kings” about Moses. But no, the people are not going to follow me like that — it’s more about ideology. It’s quite possible that there are people now, say, growing up, but beyond just being raised, they follow certain artists, bloggers — there are a lot of these people now. So, there’s an artist, and behind him is a large number of his followers, or rather listeners,