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Posted: Fri Jun 13, 2025 6:46 pm
Question: The hero asks the person if they feel that he is strange. The person replies that no, on the contrary, but overall the hero continues to believe that people still see him in a negative light. It turns out that people perceive him poorly, while entities and messengers see him as one of their own, either positively or neutrally. How do his close ones, friends, and relatives perceive him, especially those who have known him since his earliest childhood?
Let’s put it this way, I am the hero of the book. You made the question quite complicated. Well, fine. But I remember in 2011 or 2012, I met a woman who was in the committee for culture and tourism in St. Petersburg. I told her that I was very strange. I said, “Please don’t be scared, but can I tell you something?” And I kept saying, “You know, I’m very strange.” Every other word was “I’m strange, I’m strange, I’m not like others, I’m strange.” And I decided to tell her everything, like a confession: how I feel people, read thoughts, hear a voice — everything. But with every minute, I kept adding, “I’m strange, please don’t think I’m some kind of weird person, don’t think I’m strange, I’m normal.” And she caught me on that and said:
– You don’t need to explain to me whether you’re strange or not. You know, for me, the strange ones are most people in society, who are all the same. They are the ones who are strange. But you, you’re normal.
And thanks to that woman, she gave me a lot of confidence in myself, boosted me. I’m very grateful to her. She told me that she has a brother in Moscow, a very serious person, and that they drink tea together on weekends and discuss such things. And she said that normal people, they see the world consciously, like I do, and they see it from the outside and don’t act like all those zombie people. And that, on the contrary, these zombie people, they are the strange ones, she says. And she says, “Do you think if you were like them, you’d be sitting here with me in this office right now? No.” And then she offered me a job. But I’m both guilty and not guilty. I’m guilty for not going to the interview, but I had reasons, naturally, related to him, to God. Because the circumstances lead me, they can cancel anything in my life, cross it out, and naturally, only for such reasons could I disappear. And I disappeared at that time when I was supposed to meet
Let’s put it this way, I am the hero of the book. You made the question quite complicated. Well, fine. But I remember in 2011 or 2012, I met a woman who was in the committee for culture and tourism in St. Petersburg. I told her that I was very strange. I said, “Please don’t be scared, but can I tell you something?” And I kept saying, “You know, I’m very strange.” Every other word was “I’m strange, I’m strange, I’m not like others, I’m strange.” And I decided to tell her everything, like a confession: how I feel people, read thoughts, hear a voice — everything. But with every minute, I kept adding, “I’m strange, please don’t think I’m some kind of weird person, don’t think I’m strange, I’m normal.” And she caught me on that and said:
– You don’t need to explain to me whether you’re strange or not. You know, for me, the strange ones are most people in society, who are all the same. They are the ones who are strange. But you, you’re normal.
And thanks to that woman, she gave me a lot of confidence in myself, boosted me. I’m very grateful to her. She told me that she has a brother in Moscow, a very serious person, and that they drink tea together on weekends and discuss such things. And she said that normal people, they see the world consciously, like I do, and they see it from the outside and don’t act like all those zombie people. And that, on the contrary, these zombie people, they are the strange ones, she says. And she says, “Do you think if you were like them, you’d be sitting here with me in this office right now? No.” And then she offered me a job. But I’m both guilty and not guilty. I’m guilty for not going to the interview, but I had reasons, naturally, related to him, to God. Because the circumstances lead me, they can cancel anything in my life, cross it out, and naturally, only for such reasons could I disappear. And I disappeared at that time when I was supposed to meet