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Posted: Fri Jun 13, 2025 6:48 pm
naturally, friends and relatives started to take me more seriously based on my actions. I owe nothing to anyone. If you think of it like a computer, as if we live in a computer, everyone owes me. I’ve given to everyone; if someone helped me by 10 percent, I helped by 300, so that person remains in my debt. If someone helped me once, I’ll repay them, maybe after 3 years, maybe 5, but I’ll give them ten times more. But for me, there is no debt to anyone. I’ve settled everything with added zeros. If anyone ever extended a hand to me, I’ve repaid them. I don’t owe anyone. Everyone owes me. Not in the sense that I’m expecting something from someone, but based on the history of how much people, let’s say, have taken from me, and if you calculate that in percentages, according to the system, they owe me a lot. So, I’ve done enough for everyone. If we talk about my own world, my close friends, my relatives — I’ve helped everyone, I’ve sorted everything out, I’ve always treated everyone well. The only thing is, I couldn’t always join in, go on weekends to barbecues, so I apologize to my close relatives for not being seen or heard from as often, or for not being easily reachable. Sorry, I have this job. Maybe it doesn’t seem like much in the eyes of people, I’m not a president, but believe me, writing books is harder than running a factory. Seriously, it’s more difficult. Managing a factory is one thing, but to go into the “cosmos,” decode everything, write 700 pages of a book, and live a specific lifestyle to not lose that connection — it’s really tough. So, you see, it’s the same as if I were to write about food and restaurants now. I can write a book about that in any mood or state, whether I’m on a train or in a plane — anywhere. But you can’t approach “Alternative History” in such a careless way, not for a novel. I can’t just wake up — prayers, meditation, nothing to eat before that, and then start writing or dictating information and working on it. And then, when it’s already evening, near sunset, when I finish, that’s when I allow myself to eat, answer some people regarding work, because I’m still human, and I need something to eat, so I need to work. I have a lot of responsibilities, a lot of different work. Also, the expression “need something to eat” — I don’t eat like that. Well, I need something, let’s put it another way — I need to support the team that helps me publish these books, helps me with everything. It all costs a lot of money. A lot. So, you know, a superficial and spontaneous person, who maybe heard about me by rumor, read some book, or saw some video about the book where I talk about it, could form a spontaneous opinion that