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[Alexandr Korol]

And they’ll start thinking about me or even check out what new books I’ve published. Why did this happen? Because they’ve entered the world where these books exist. The question is, though, why were they absent for five years, and where were they? So, when you lose the desire to watch “Eternal Sunshine of the Spotless Mind” or “Peaceful Warrior” or “Captain Hook,” or lose the desire to read my books, and instead want to watch cheerful bloggers, it means you’re simply not in my world — not because you’re tired of it, but because you’ve entered another world, with different rhythms, different vibrations, where your attention is focused on completely different people and things. It’s as if you’re in a different space. You ended up there, and in 99.9% of cases, that wasn’t your choice. Actually, it was your choice, but you didn’t know you were choosing it. So, you didn’t know about the consequences, you didn’t know that it would switch you like that. A person doesn’t realize that by watching something humorous on social media, or by interacting with a superficial person, exchanging crude jokes, their heart will close. A person doesn’t know this. They don’t feel it, there’s no red warning light flashing for them, they don’t see it. And they think everything is fine, that things are as they were. The next day, they wake up and continue living, but they don’t know that they’re living differently now, that their perspective has shifted, their attitude toward people, life, and themselves has changed, everything has changed. They don’t know this. They just feel the way they’ve always felt, but now that feeling is false, though it’s being transmitted from a different source. And there are multiple such sources, not just one.

And returning to the question of faith – that’s the source, because you can’t lose it. You see, if I were to talk to people now about money, success, clothes, gossip, and rumors, my heart would close, and I would feel eternally inadequate, insecure, self-conscious, with a kind of vain enthusiasm, an endless insatiability. Yes, it will never be satisfied when you’re in that society. And I can fall into it if I stop maintaining the right lifestyle, if I stop following it. But I’m just like you, and if I let everything go and don’t filter who to meet, who not to meet, who to talk to, who not to talk to, I’ll lose myself immediately. Because society, this serpent-tempter, “agent smith” — it’s everywhere, everywhere. And people who were once bright friends,