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Posted: Sat Jun 14, 2025 6:31 am
they’ve all fallen under the influence of society. They’ve all become social media experts, jumping around, filming everything, and I’ve hidden myself from all of them. They think I’m behaving badly. In reality, they just didn’t notice how they’ve already turned into these zombies, and I’m afraid of becoming like them. Because I have responsibility, I need to finish my books. Of course, I’d love to communicate with everyone, but they’re infected.
You see, faith and disbelief – just from a conversation, the angle can change in one direction or the opposite. If I meet a friend right now and start talking to him about, “Listen, have you thought about the fact that sooner or later our relatives will grow old and pass away? It’s kind of scary, we’ll have to bury them. Will you keep me company in this? I don’t think I can handle it alone.” And my friend says, “Yes, of course, Alex, I’ve thought about it too.” Then this friend tells me, “I have a wife and five kids. And I’m struggling with this and that.” And I support him too, saying, “You’re doing great, hero, they’ll grow up soon, everything will be fine.” Then he tells me what’s troubling him, and I share what troubles me. He’ll share his weaknesses – I’ll share mine. We’ll talk about the spiritual, the deep things, about what the world was like, how it was ten years ago, twenty years ago, and how it has changed, how people have become so superficial. And when we talk about this with my friend, where does faith go? Faith doesn’t go anywhere; the heart is wide open – both his and mine. Now, imagine if I meet with another friend, or start messaging or calling someone who says to me, “Listen, do you know that Svetka and Olga went to Bali? Why didn’t you go? Why? Come on, let’s go. How much money did you make this month? I made this much. Hey, did you see those pants, or did you hear about this cryptocurrency that’s rising, or did you see what Trump said, or what do you think about this? Have you heard the rumors about this one? Did you hear the gossip about that one? It’s crazy, really. And this stand-up comedian, he’s performing in Phuket right now. Maybe we should fly there, go check it out? Did you see that joke? Ha-ha-ha, that joke, it’s hilarious...” If I discuss this and watch these ridiculous videos, then that’s it – I start feeling like I’m not myself. I lose clarity, I lose confidence, I lose my drive. So, I start feeling lazy, tired, like I don’t know where to put myself, and I can’t focus on anything, or I develop a desire to dive into everything now.
You see, faith and disbelief – just from a conversation, the angle can change in one direction or the opposite. If I meet a friend right now and start talking to him about, “Listen, have you thought about the fact that sooner or later our relatives will grow old and pass away? It’s kind of scary, we’ll have to bury them. Will you keep me company in this? I don’t think I can handle it alone.” And my friend says, “Yes, of course, Alex, I’ve thought about it too.” Then this friend tells me, “I have a wife and five kids. And I’m struggling with this and that.” And I support him too, saying, “You’re doing great, hero, they’ll grow up soon, everything will be fine.” Then he tells me what’s troubling him, and I share what troubles me. He’ll share his weaknesses – I’ll share mine. We’ll talk about the spiritual, the deep things, about what the world was like, how it was ten years ago, twenty years ago, and how it has changed, how people have become so superficial. And when we talk about this with my friend, where does faith go? Faith doesn’t go anywhere; the heart is wide open – both his and mine. Now, imagine if I meet with another friend, or start messaging or calling someone who says to me, “Listen, do you know that Svetka and Olga went to Bali? Why didn’t you go? Why? Come on, let’s go. How much money did you make this month? I made this much. Hey, did you see those pants, or did you hear about this cryptocurrency that’s rising, or did you see what Trump said, or what do you think about this? Have you heard the rumors about this one? Did you hear the gossip about that one? It’s crazy, really. And this stand-up comedian, he’s performing in Phuket right now. Maybe we should fly there, go check it out? Did you see that joke? Ha-ha-ha, that joke, it’s hilarious...” If I discuss this and watch these ridiculous videos, then that’s it – I start feeling like I’m not myself. I lose clarity, I lose confidence, I lose my drive. So, I start feeling lazy, tired, like I don’t know where to put myself, and I can’t focus on anything, or I develop a desire to dive into everything now.