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[Alexandr Korol]

return to my eighth angle. The eighth angle is the most important. This is the position of the observer, the position of here and now, when you’re outside of society, outside of the social world. This is my world, my “corridor,” a dreamy world, nameless, I call it in different ways. It’s still the main one. And of course, I missed it, to return to the question. I missed this world when I was in the material world. When you’re in the material world, in luxury, you don’t miss the spiritual because you can’t remember the other world. But when I would pull out my reminders and arrange some spiritual day for myself, when I would go into the “cosmos,” I would of course immediately want to destroy everything material and social and return to my eighth angle, to my “corridor,” but I knew I couldn’t yet. Though there were many desires and attempts. Big Alexander also regulates this moment. I’ve told him so many times, I say, “I want to go to this eighth angle forever and never return to people. To release control, to release the mind.” And he replies, “It’s still early, you haven’t done the things you need to do in the social-material world to go into a world without the mind. Be patient a little longer.” And every year he tells me this. Now there’s hope that maybe this will be the last year. What motivates me now to work on what I’m working on, and to answer these questions? It’s the desire to not return to the world of people, to finish all these books, to publish everything, and stay in my “corridor,” in my eighth angle. Because when you enter the world of people, there’s immediately old age, heaviness, and everything starts right away. It’s like a reverse countdown; it’s as if diseases, problems, and thoughts all come together — everything becomes difficult. And when you go into this eighth angle, it’s like you’re reborn, and it’s all magic. But this luxury world gave me a lot of experience. It’s not just a luxury world. I had to develop my taste even more, see these social worlds, know which world each person belongs to, be able to communicate with them, interact, and when creating any product, know for which world that product is meant. People live in different worlds. All of this is necessary. If I hadn’t gone through this social-material meat grinder over the past 10 years, this adaptation through which I went, getting bumps along the way, I probably wouldn’t be able to express my thoughts so clearly now and give information. I wouldn’t have been able to publish a book the way I am doing it now. It would have been more complicated. After all, social and material adaptation is necessary.