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[Alexandr Korol]

Although, really, what is there to fear if it’s actually God? The fact that people have forgotten about Him and turned away from Him is another issue. But yes, many outsiders, even just acquaintances, have witnessed strange things happening around me, and they understand that it’s always, in a word, mysticism. My whole life has been mysticism, mysticism, mysticism — some anomaly, some interference, something strange. It’s been that way all my life — some external force always intervenes in my life, and it’s been happening constantly. And yes, back then, I wanted to believe, and people... Actually, it was people who started planting this idea in my head that maybe it was some kind of recruitment, maybe by acquaintances, maybe relatives, maybe something else — just anything to convince me otherwise. Let’s put it this way — their thinking is materialistic, and they were trying to persuade me to look at everything more from that material perspective. But I still saw it all more from a spiritual, anomalous point of view, while they simply can’t see things that way — materialistic people — they don’t believe in anything like that, it doesn’t exist for them. That’s why they tried to explain it in a human, material way. And many said things like, “It’s definitely some kind of recruitment, that’s how spies are recruited,” or “Maybe Big Alexander is some kind of spy too?” and that “maybe he’s recruiting you like that, because there are all sorts of recruitment methods where you might not even realize it.” But again, even if that were the case, no one ever told me to do anything. Logically speaking, if someone is being recruited, it’s because they’re needed for something — to promote something if they’re an artist, or to invest money somewhere. So they’re somehow being used for that. What could they possibly want from me? That’s why, even if I wanted to think it was some kind of recruitment — what for, if I don’t know anything, don’t do anything, can’t do anything, and have nothing except that I write books, which not that many people even read? But the path itself — just imagine, someone reads “Alternative History,” and they walk with me from my youth starting from the first volume, and then go further and further, and then there’s volume eight, and oh... And for someone to even begin to grasp and understand what’s in volume eight, which I’ve now started working on, they’d definitely need to read the first volume first — to get to know the book’s main character, so that all those silly human questions that might come up, like about recruitment and so on, would already be answered and reflected on in volume one.