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Posted: Sat Jun 14, 2025 7:10 am
Just out there. But when I was in Karelia, the sensation was that they were right here, like right above my head, maybe to the side, right above, very close. That’s what felt so unusual.
Question: At the beginning of the first volume, you mention that they, those who control everything, told you to use illusion when communicating with people. And at that time you were against using illusion, as to you it felt like deception. Has your understanding of illusion changed at this point? And should it be used when communicating with people?
You are asking me, the character of the first volume of the book. I’m not even the character of the second, third, fourth, or fifth volume. Of course, as both the author and the character writing the book — as in a diary — I can, of course, refer to the fact that in the fifth volume I revealed this to you. I could say that. But don’t ask me where I am now, in which volume. We’re still in the first volume. Even when I answer questions, I give answers as I thought in the first volume. I think differently now, but I answer in the image of the character from the first volume; I must explain how I thought back then. It’s a very important path — to first understand how I thought then, and then with each volume see how the thinking changes. That’s the journey. And at the end of your question, you say whether it should be used when communicating with people. I hope you’re not asking that for yourself, because I never teach anyone anything. I don’t say how one should live — I just tell. Even when I was writing my first draft books, before the first volume of “Alternative History,” I always said — I’m writing this for myself. I want to understand who I am and what’s happening to me. And I shared what was happening to me, and how I suddenly learned, I don’t know, not to get lost in society, and how not to have chaos in my head but instead clarity and order, to be without thoughts — I talked about that. And it’s great that maybe it was useful to someone. I didn’t share it to please people or to impress them, or because they needed it. No, I was sharing what I was experiencing — it’s my personal life and story. I hope, of course, you’re not asking for yourself about how to interact with people, and that you’re instead asking me, the character in the book, how I interact. So let’s go back to the question. Yes, these “they,” and including Big Alexander — and really many of my acquaintances —
Question: At the beginning of the first volume, you mention that they, those who control everything, told you to use illusion when communicating with people. And at that time you were against using illusion, as to you it felt like deception. Has your understanding of illusion changed at this point? And should it be used when communicating with people?
You are asking me, the character of the first volume of the book. I’m not even the character of the second, third, fourth, or fifth volume. Of course, as both the author and the character writing the book — as in a diary — I can, of course, refer to the fact that in the fifth volume I revealed this to you. I could say that. But don’t ask me where I am now, in which volume. We’re still in the first volume. Even when I answer questions, I give answers as I thought in the first volume. I think differently now, but I answer in the image of the character from the first volume; I must explain how I thought back then. It’s a very important path — to first understand how I thought then, and then with each volume see how the thinking changes. That’s the journey. And at the end of your question, you say whether it should be used when communicating with people. I hope you’re not asking that for yourself, because I never teach anyone anything. I don’t say how one should live — I just tell. Even when I was writing my first draft books, before the first volume of “Alternative History,” I always said — I’m writing this for myself. I want to understand who I am and what’s happening to me. And I shared what was happening to me, and how I suddenly learned, I don’t know, not to get lost in society, and how not to have chaos in my head but instead clarity and order, to be without thoughts — I talked about that. And it’s great that maybe it was useful to someone. I didn’t share it to please people or to impress them, or because they needed it. No, I was sharing what I was experiencing — it’s my personal life and story. I hope, of course, you’re not asking for yourself about how to interact with people, and that you’re instead asking me, the character in the book, how I interact. So let’s go back to the question. Yes, these “they,” and including Big Alexander — and really many of my acquaintances —